I am in search of the Siraat-e- Mustaqueem (The straight path). I have travelled the world looking for it. He who holds the map of the path I realized is “closer to me than my jugular vein”
I am also looking for ‘ purity of the heart‘, and how to take the “I” out of living and submerge oneself in the will & pleasure of Allah Subhanawataa’la
This does not mean I am already there.
I am a portrait in progress 
WHO AM I AND WHERE DO I LIVE? (More about me)
My supplication:
Alahumma infa`ni bima `allamtani wa `allamni ma yanfa`uni!
OH ALLAH! Make useful for me what You taught me
and teach me knowledge that will be useful to me!
(Aameen)
(taken from Rayon Soleil’s blog)
193 responses so far ↓
asqfish // December 28, 2007 at 11:00 pm |
In reading your comments, my soliluquy changes to a dialogue.
Opening your comment is like opening the door to a guest, instead of wondering if you came by the door I am always happy to see that you left me a note.
Anisur Rahman // January 9, 2008 at 5:45 am |
I am new to thie concept of blogging. But I am desparate. I have just lost my only child, 20 year old boy, handsome, tall, bright, intelligent, courteus and loving. I have been treating patients for last 25 years. In my own way I have tried to help others. I tried to abide by the laws of Islam. Pl help me, I need some answers.
Regards,
Anisur Rahman
Consultant
Gen Surgery
Anisur Rahman // January 9, 2008 at 5:45 am |
Sorry got my email wrong
asqfish // January 9, 2008 at 10:38 am |
Asalaamoalaikum brother, I am deeply saddened by the loss of your son.
Inna lil lahi wa inna elayhe rajaoon.
At this time be with someone you love, be sad but dont blame people, circumstances or yourself. Know that you could not have changed circumstances or events. Know that this is not a punishment, but Qadr.
Initially what helped me was when I felt the tide of grief rising I contiuously repeated:
Inna lil lahi wa inna elayhe rajaoon till the tide backed down, this would happen many times a day and I continued.
If you can pray nafil salaat and talk to Allah, complain to him, cry for him to help you , and Inshallah He is merciful and He will!
May Allah help and guide you.
the posts under the category “Balm for a never ending heartache” are written to share my journey towards Allah after I lost my son.
Anisur Rahman // January 9, 2008 at 12:36 pm |
Dear sister,
My son was my love, pride, wealth, futyre and my dreams. I have been praying for many years now, although I had doubt about my devotion. But I continued. I recited the Quran, specially, Sura Yasin, several times a week. I have been treating patients for last 25 yeaars. Many of my patients were poor whom I tried to help. I was there for my relatives and friends at any time of the day or night. My only worldly prayer to Allah was safety and health of my family. Yet my 20 year old 6feet 80 kg healthy child died from liver failure within 2 weeks.
I realize my Iman is not as strong as yours, but I have continued to pray for myself and my son. But help me to understand the decree of Allah.
Regards,
Anisur Rahman
PS: how did your son die?
asqfish // January 9, 2008 at 6:40 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum,
Allah SWT is the only entity in our life that gives us infinite mercy, infinite love and infinite protection all else that we love and cherish like our sons and our loved ones and us have to return to Him (SWT).
We are separated by death from our loved ones by a veil, they are on the other side and we can no longer see them or feel them.
Our behavior in this life does not work as a barter with Allah SWT, i.e. we do something and he gives us reward in this world. Our true rewards and your true rewards await you on the Day of judgement. Our behaviour and prayers only vouchsafe our own future in the Hereafter.
Why did Allah SWT who loved His Prophet (PBUH) take baby Ibrahim, Prophet Muhammad’s only son at the tender age of two?
Only Allah knows. Some divine actions confound the finite intellect.
I pray that He (SWT) keep you in His mercy and give you comfort in your pain and strength to bear this loss, to remain steadfast in your Emaan, firmly holding on to His rope.
Please call upon Him (SWT) repeatedly in formal prayer, dhikr or otherwise till He (SWT) becomes the balm for your never ending heartache.
asqfish // January 23, 2008 at 5:17 pm |
Brother Anis,
I hope you read this, how are you? How can I help? My prayers are with you many times a day!
asqfish // January 28, 2008 at 11:37 am |
A lot of what I write is to clarify things in my head and heart.
Anisur Rahman // January 29, 2008 at 1:04 pm |
Dear Sister,
My wife is not a computer person and doesnot use email. She is teaching in a university for last 25 years. As you can understand she is completly devastated. But Alhamdulillah she is praying for our son at all times when she is not in the university. Will you please send her an email, one mother to another.
As for me I am trying to work in the hospital and visit my son’s grave everyday on my way to hospital and home. It is difficult as I have many yong patients with cancer and I have to operate on them, knowing they may not survive. It is most difficult to talk to the parents as I cant stop crying infront of them. Pray for us sister. If you send me ur email I could show you my son’s picture. Or you could go to Facebook and look up Mufrad Nabeel Rahman
regards,
Anis
asqfish // January 29, 2008 at 9:39 pm |
Inshallah I will email your wife, if she would like to correspond by email.
My prayers are with you, and your family.
May Allah give you sabr and solace and wrap you and your wife in His rahma.
Anisur Rahman // February 20, 2008 at 8:12 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum.
I have a number of questions which I thought you will be able to answer me from the Islamic point of view.
1. What is the best way to visit one’s son’s grave. I mean what are the duas.
2. Does a dead son know that his parents are praying for him.
3. In the family life who is more important, parents or children. I ean who gets the preference.
Thank you.
Regards,
Anisur Rahman
asqfish // February 20, 2008 at 11:25 pm |
Inshallah I will put it together in a post. The best information that I benefited from greatly about what happens after death is in the CD set titled “The Hereafter”: by Anwar Awlaki. It is worth listening to, it changes the focus of the life we are spending in dunya.
May Allah give you and your family sabr and peace in your heart.
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johnnypeepers // February 22, 2008 at 2:24 pm |
As Salaamu alaykum,
Thank you for the generous and kind comment you left for me. You write with a deep understanding of the human spirit and empathy for all. I look forward to reading more of your earlier posts. May Allah bless you and yours.
Anisur Rahman // March 3, 2008 at 1:26 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum.
I am sorry to bother you but my pain is getting unbearable. I am loosing control. I go to hospital where I am operating normally, doing very difficult cases but not talking to any one. I come home and go to a corner with my lap top. My relatives are coming to meet me but I avoid them. My wife being the mother is trying to receive them. I am also getting rude to my parents. Only solace is when I go to the cemetry. It is now 76 days since Nabeel left us. I have gone to the grave every day twice. In rain, in pitch dark in dense fog. Sister tell me what can I do? I am praying constantly, in the hospital, in the car, at home. Do you think I am beyond recovery? Help me. Will you please send me your email. I want to mail you my son’s picture.
asqfish // March 3, 2008 at 3:49 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum Br Anis,
You need professional help. I am not qualified to be your doctor.
I did go to a grief counselor to get help when things became unbearable for me.
Each one of us gets solace in different ways. You need some love from your parents so be with them for some time everyday. Spend some quiet time being with your wife. Maybe visit your sons grave once a day and instead of the second time visit someone poor who needs help, or be with your parnets and talk about your son with them.
Ask Allah to help you, and try to work with or be with people less fortunate than you are.
Most urgently go see a physician with experience in grief counseling immediately! Even if we are physicians we need professional help in these circumstances.
We all pray that Allah helps you and your family with this sadness and brings you closer to him,and inshallah He (SWT) will. Ask Him, but also get the help He (SWT) has waiting for you in the form of family, friends, and grief counselors.
asqfish // March 3, 2008 at 9:41 pm |
Br Anis, I did see your wonderful son’s picture, Mashallah Allah SWT loved him more than anyone, perhaps that is why he called him early in his youth.
Inshallah he has a place in Jannah and I pray that he will be the reason Allah SWT will admit his parents to Jannah.
I hope you are using the resources Allah has given you to obtain some grief counseling and a visit to your family physician.
Just remember that this too shall pass, with Allah’s blessing.
Anisur Rahman // March 4, 2008 at 2:58 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum.
I had gone to a professional and was given a medication in addition to the counseling. That made things worse. I have stopped taking the medication. I shall take your advice and may be go to a different counselor. Problem is in Bangladesh there are so many basic problems in life that no one cares about trouble with grief. As a result this science has not developed like say USA.
If I do not go to the cemetry I feel that I am abandoning my child.
I am glad that you had a look at my handsome son. Your heart is so pure I am sure Tariq was a very handsome boy.
I hope you wont mind if I send messages from time to time.
Regards,
asqfish // March 4, 2008 at 10:16 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam,
Please share your grief with your loved ones. Your son Alhamdollillah is surrounded by Allah’s protection. In no way is he abandoned.
He was innocent when he left this earth. Allah SWT will inshallah make a special place in jannah for him.
Please be with your parents they need you. Please be with your wife she is hurting and she needs you. May Allah grant you sabr and guidance.
Our community prayer is for your family, inshallah people will remember your son always. May Allah SWT give him the best place in Jannah and help you find your feet so that you may walk towards Allah’s beckoning arms, and seek solace from him.
Perhaps an Ummrah or Hajj?
asqfish // March 6, 2008 at 8:25 am |
Br. Anis Asalaam o alaikum,
please do send messages when you can, so that we know how you are doing and you know that we are making dua for you and your family.
Anisur Rahman // March 7, 2008 at 9:09 am |
Dear Sister
Asalaam o alaikum,
Yesterday was a very bad day. Suddenly while coming back from hospital all the memories of recent events came back to me. It was suffocating. I cried loudly. Think of it in the middle of a traffic jam a 50 year old man crying his heart out. Some how I managed to reach the cemetry where I got some solace by the side of Nabeel’s grave. At home I could not control myself and we cried at each others arm. Then a very strange thing happened. Late at night while saying tahajjud prayer, I suddenly felt a very warm sensation deep in me. I never felt this way. As if someone has possessd me and trying to lift me from the prayer mat. In this state I finished another 2 rakats. I felt nervous but I was calm. I wanted to call my wife but I could not make a sound. Then the feeling passed. I went to sleep and then got up for fazr. Afterwards when I went to bed I had a very peaceful sleep. It is 81 days since Nabeel left me but I have never dreamt him. Can you tell me why?
asqfish // March 7, 2008 at 10:05 am |
Inshallah Allah’s rahma is descending on you. You will inshallah dream of Nabeel when you are at peace and accepting that he is in Allah’s protection in a better place than this world.
I too did not dream of Tariq for a very long time, though others in my community saw both the boys happy .
And then one day I did………….it was strange because he was twelve, and since then I have dreamt of him occasionally.
I strongly urge you not to get dreams interpreted it is not recommended. Just share them with your family if they are good, don’t talk to others about it.
There is a lot of superstition in that part of the world. You don’t need any more pain than you already have.
Try not to concentrate on trying to dream of Nabeel, instead if you can, concentrate on seeing him in Jannah and perhaps you with him.
Inshallah the doors of His (SWT) afiya are opening for you………give sadaqa to someone very very poor and needy with your own hands and with respect, and peace will come to you by His grace.
Today is friday inshallah my friends and I will quietly and personally pray for you and your family at Jumaa.
Anisur Rahman // March 8, 2008 at 6:18 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum.
My son was sick for about 16 days of which he was in hospital for 14 days. During this time literally hundreds of welwishers in Bangladesh and all over the world including USA, UK, Pakistan, India, Canada, Japan and KSA prayed for him. At that that time it was Hajj and at least 10 of his close relatives and friends were in Mecca praying for him. He died when they were praying for him in Arafat. Both his maternal and paternal grand parents are known for their piousness and they are in their 70s and 80s. I know it was Allah’s decree and nothing could change it. But is there any explanation why all these persons prayers didnot have any effect. Then why do we pray during our distress? Please donot misunderstand me. I only want Allah’s mercy . I just want any explanation that may have been given by our prophet (PUH).
Regards,
asqfish // March 8, 2008 at 8:55 am |
Walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatahu,
As I understand it dua or supplication can change everything except the time of death which is fixed (Surah Al Imran, Surah Al Anaam).
Nabeel was innocent and a child, Inshallah he will go to jannah.
There are three reasons one does not see immediate result of dua:
1. It has been granted but this is not the right time
2.What one is praying for is not the best thing for us (Allah knows what is best for us)and Allah SWT has something better saved for us.
3. I forget the third reason
(ref: Dua : the weapon of the believer by Yasir Qadhi)
We feel sad at parting with our loved ones, but it is a reminder that this life in this dunya is a nanosecond compared to what awaits us in our real life after death.
All our preparation needs to be redirected to that purpose, and perhaps Allah SWT has asked Nabeel, Tariq, Imran & Ebad to lead the way and for us to follow.
They were innocent and will inshallah be admitted to jannah. The question we need to ask ourselves is : have we done our homework for jannah? and if not what do we need to do? that is where I am.
May Allah grant you and your family sabr and his rahma.
Anisur Rahman // March 8, 2008 at 1:54 pm |
Dear Sister
Assalamualikum.
Donot take it otherwise but I suppose you have other children. Nabeel was everything I had. In my extended family and among my friends, there will be close to 500 families, I can think of only another person who had lost a child. It makes me either a very sinful person or a very special person. In my limited knowledge I donot belong to any of the two. Allah has given me the power to think and it becomes very difficult to rationalise. I remember reading some where that not having a heir is a curse from Allah, is it true? Only Allah knows best!
Regards,
Anisur Rahman // March 11, 2008 at 10:45 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. Did I write something in my last post to offend you? I am sincerely sorry if I did. You havenot repled to my post.
Regards
asqfish // March 12, 2008 at 7:11 am |
Walaikum Asalaam,
I am searching for Prophets Zakaraiahs Dua for you which says “Allah is the best inheritor of all”.
I work in bursts trying to study tafseer, and other ilm of deen, so forgive me if I don’t reply immediately.
We are meeting for tafseer today, please pray for us that Allah accepts our efforts.
How are you and your family? Please give them my salaams.
Anisur Rahman // March 13, 2008 at 12:56 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. I am relieved to get a response from you. Among few good things that has happened in my life after Nabeel left us, one is your blogging site.
We are doing well under the circumstances. We are still with our parents. I always talk about your advice with my wife. Incidentally she was brought up in Pakistan as her father was in Pakistan Army. She says all her closest friends were in Pakistan. She came to Bangladesh after SSC exam. One of her friend Aqdus Rashid is a doctor although they have not had any contact since 1974.
Inshallah Allah will accept your efforts. Please continue to pray for us.
Regards,
asqfish // March 13, 2008 at 6:34 am |
Asalaamoalaikum,
Please share the blog with your dear wife, if she feels up to it and give my salaams to your her and your parents and please keep me in your prayers.
Anisur Rahman // March 14, 2008 at 11:37 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. this morning we returned to our house 3 months 9 days after taking our son to the hospital and 2 months 28 days after Allah took him. You can well imagine my wife’s reaction in entering Nabeel’s room. I tried my best to console her and hide my pain at the same time. Being a father is a peculiar role in these circumstances. You cannot show your own pain so that the mother’s suffering donot increase. It was like loosing Nabeel all over again. I donot think Mina is going to survive long. Her mental and physical reserves are almost exhausted.
We had our first meal in the house after 3rd Dec 2007 and without Nabeel. Mina asked me to sit in Nabeel’s chair. What is your advice regarding Nbeel’s room and his things? His collection of books and DVDs are huge. His wardrobe is also huge. We have so many of his pictures put up in the wall. What do I do with these pictures. Nabeel had large feet and we couldnot get shoes here in Dhaka, Bangladesh My two brothers in US used o supply them twice a year. There are very few people who could use his shoes.
Please give me some advice as a sister to an unfortunate brother.
Did I mention that Nabeel was not only regular in his prayers but went to mosque whenever he got the chance. My driver told me this. I didnot know about it.
Regards
asqfish // March 14, 2008 at 11:57 am |
Asalaam o alaikum Br. Anis,
Inna nil lahi wa inna elayhi rajeoon is a dua of difficulty, I repeatedly read it when ever the storm of grief comes.
I cannot advise you on what to do with Nabeels things. If you want to give them away because they are reminders, that is a fallacy because he resides in your heart forever.
When the earthquake came in Pakistan and Katrina came in the USA , I gave away most of Tariq’s clothes, sweaters, jackets, parkas,etc. I gave all his magazines to the old peoples homes, I put out his favorite clothes and artifacts and asked his friends and my male relatives to choose whatever they wanted, and they took some.
I sent some of his books to his cousins and some to the local library. I have kept a few of his things.
One of my American friends suggested that I use the Ts which have memories attached to them and make them into a quilt, have not done that, but I think at some point I will indulge in this labor of love.
His Eidi and birthday money that he had saved in cash I sent to a young student in Gaza who makes everyday movies, and who seemed to be a computer buff like Tariq. He wrote me back and has adopted me as his mother (umme Tariq and now Umme Mohammad).
I dont know what to do with his soccer and academic trophies.
I also sent the money that I would have spent on his soccer and some more to start a soccer team for kids in Gaza, The Doctor who works there and coordinated all this is the Doctor who writes the world famous blog “From Gaza with Love”. I feel that Tariq would have liked that.
The muslim community here has gotten together and are fundraising for building a new mosque and a TIE (Tariq, Imran Ebad) Friendship sports center with a prayer room, and an electronic conference room. My husband is more involved in that.
One step at a time, Don’t force yourself or your wife to do things that dont feel right, but there are a lot of people out there who could benefit from Nabeels things and pray for him every time they use them.
May Allah guide you and protect you.
ps I have thought of converting Tariq’s room to a prayer room, similar to what I saw at my hosts home in S.Africa (check the post on 100 things about Dhikr) but I am not ready yet.
May Allah give you both strength to call upon Him whenever and wherever you can.
asqfish // March 14, 2008 at 2:19 pm |
SubhanAllah, you are learning new and beautiful things about your son…….Inshallah he is in a beautiful place with Him(SWT)
asqfish // March 14, 2008 at 2:24 pm |
An afterthought: I gave Tariq’s things away little by little, ofcourse always first asking the relatives and near friends if they wanted any, before giving them away.
Any one who benefits from Tariq’s things I consider is sadaqa e jariya for him.
Ask your wife what she wants to do and let her do it in her own time.
Anisur Rahman // March 15, 2008 at 1:32 am |
Assalamualikum.
I have been teaching medical students for last 17 years and almost 2000 students have become doctors who are working all over the world. As they are treating sick people do you think my efforts in teaching them will be considered sadaqa jariya?
We have formed a Mufrad Nabeel Rahman Memorial Trust in my son’s name. The trust is paying for the expenses of a number of yatims in a particular madrassa; it has announced awards for best results in medical school where Nabeel was a student; it is sponsoring an annual cricket trophy in medical school where Nabeel was a member of the team. We have many other plans if only Allah would give me the mental and physical strength to continue. Please pray for us and particularly for Nabeel.
Regards,
asqfish // March 15, 2008 at 9:42 am |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatahu
Allah SWT says if you take one step towards me, I will take ten.
Inshallah it looks like you have taken that step and He SWT will make it easy for you, and draw you and your wife closer to Him (SWT)
Ameen
Anisur Rahman // March 16, 2008 at 12:00 am |
Dear sister,
Assalamualikum.
Today is exactly 3 months, 16th and the same day sunday, that Nabeel left us. It seems only yesterday and also seems to be so far away. What is the state of my mind today?
1. I am amazed at the power of human mind. The very fact that I am discussing my Nabeel’s death is a testament of human power.
2. I feel guilty that I have not done enough for Nabeel when he was sick and afterwards after he has left us, I havenot prayed enough.
3. I feel guilty that we are having a life as usual.
4. I feel guilty that my wife is suffering so much and I cannot offer her any solace.
5. I feel guilty that I have been reduced to a lesser person and have not lived upto the expectation of what Nabeel thought of his father.
May Allah have mercy on all of us.
Regards,
asqfish // March 16, 2008 at 7:22 am |
Walaikum Asalaaam wa rahmatullahi was barakatahu,
May Allah ease your pain and your guilt. May Allah keep Nabeel in the best of places and give all His relatives and loved ones sabr and peace.
You are feeling the responsibility as a father, husband and physician.
We have been sent on this earth for an appointed time, even our parents Adam and Eve were told that they are being sent to earth for an appointed time and then we return to our Lord.
The best way to assuage your pain is to ask Him (SWT) how to do it? and then wait with sabr for His answer.
Even knowing the above theoretically, I had often thought that maybe if I had not let Tariq go on this trip maybe this would not have happened.
One morning when I got ready to listen to Farhat Hashmi’s tafseer, I opened Surah Al Imran and lo and behold there were Allah SWT gving me His answer:
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YUSUFALI: Nor can a soul die except by Allah’s leave, the term being fixed as by writing. If any do desire a reward in this life, We shall give it to him; and if any do desire a reward in the Hereafter, We shall give it to him. And swiftly shall We reward those that (serve us with) gratitude
Nabeel was Allah’s amana given to you for a period to bring you joy, and when the fixed time was over Allah SWT took back His amana. He (SWT) taught you how to be happy via Nabeel.
You took good care of Nabeel when He was with you and if your erred, ask Allah for forgiveness, He is Ghafoor rur Raheem.
I feel sad for you and your wife, and pray that Allah SWT help you, and inshallah He will, so look for what indications He may give you for your next step.
Maybe the two of you need to take a break and go to a beautiful place near the ocean, and get peace being close to Allah’s creation. and pray together and walk on the beach.
Or take a spiritual trip and go for Ummrah and at Allah’s House ask for His love and peace.
May Allah give you and your wife sabr, and comfort and remove all the guilt you are feeling and replace it with peace and taqwa.
Jazaaik ALlah hu Khairan.
Anisur Rahman // March 16, 2008 at 12:52 pm |
Dear Sister
Assalamualaiku.
Thank you. I am trying. I am most grateful to Allah that He put me in touch with you. You didnot answer about medical students and sadaqa jariya.
Can you suggest a reading list and a CD list for me.
Regards,
asqfish // March 16, 2008 at 1:19 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum,
Inshallah any act becomes a sadaqa i jaraiya based upon the intention it was done with, you and Allah know your intention. Outside people cannot judge not should they.
I was very happy to hear what you are doing in Nabeels name inshallah you and your family will get much sawab from these actions.
May Allah contine to empower you to serve Him.
As far as a reading list and Cds I have mentioned some that I benefited from in the post ” A regular diet of ilm” I would add “Diseases of the Heart” CDs by Sheikh Mokhtar Magroubi in that, that is something I have to listen to many many times.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan,
ps Don’t forget to bring your family along on your journey towards Allah with love and patience, sharing what you learn, and what helps with them.
May Allah reward you!
Anisur Rahman // March 18, 2008 at 7:55 pm |
Dear sister,
Assalamualaikum. I just thought I would share a few things about Nabeel with you. One of his amazing quality was he could be friend to a 60 yr old and a 6 yr old at the same time. You know the mothers of his friends used to call him if there were any problem with their children. His cousins many years older then him called him up from USA when they felt lonely. His dada discussed things with him which was not discuussed with me.
One day when Nabeel was ill I bought fruits and pastries on way home from hospital. Nabeel told his mom that the son of our domestic help (bua) is also sick and he stays with his nani in Khulna. Nabeel insisted that we arrnge to send some money to that boy in Khulna so that his nani could buy fruits for him. So I had to call up their relative next morning and gave money to be sent to Khulna. That was Nabeel.
As the days go by I remember more and more things about Nabeel.
Regards,
asqfish // March 18, 2008 at 8:12 pm |
Allah SWT sent you a blessing for an appointed time. You and your family was blessed by having him with you for that period.
May Allah continue to bless you as you remember the blessings He (SWT) has given you for all the years you had Nabeel.
You were good parents to him and gave him a good ‘tarbiyah’. May Allah reward you and Nabeels mother and grandparents.
Jazaaik Allah hu khairan
Anisur Rahman // March 21, 2008 at 1:41 am |
Dear sister,
Assalamualaikum.
This morning I went out for my jogging for the first time after Nabeel left us. As per your advice I said fazr prayer in a slow and unhurried way in Nabeel’s room (We both are saying our prayers in his room now a days) did some other prayers and then went out. The morning was cool and there was a light breeze beside the lake where we stay. Suddenly I found a group of people sitting beside the lake and saying Darrod on our Prophet (PBH). There were about 50 people. What a good sign for me to start life again slowly but surely. Today is the Eid e Miladunnabi and also Friday here in Bangladesh.
May Allah show mercy on Tariq and his friends, Nabeel and all others that we care for.
Regards,
ashique // March 22, 2008 at 7:25 am |
good writing
asqfish // March 23, 2008 at 11:19 pm |
Br. Ashique, thank you
Br. Anis……Allah SWT is spreading his rahma on you and your family.
What a beautiful scene……people sitting by the lake and sending Darood on the auspicious occasion of our Prophets (PBUH) birth and death anniversary!
Ameen to your dua and May He(SWT) give the families of the boys sabr and His guidance.
Jazaaik ALlah hu Khairan.
Anisur Rahman // March 25, 2008 at 12:53 am |
Dear Sister,
This morning again after fazr prayer when I was sitting in Nabeel’s room and watching the sunrise (his room has a large picture window overlooking a park), the reason for Allah’s decree was clear to me. At least that is what I think. Nabeel was His favorite soul so He needed Nabeel. But in the process Nabeel sacrificed his time in dunya for the emancipiation of his parents! You see although I was a muslim with all the conviction my iman was not that strong. I had never been defeated in my life. I studied in the best of schools and medical colleges. I have been successful in my carreer beyond imagination. I have passed all my exams at home and abroad with flying colours. I have worked in Canada, UK, Iran with distinction. All these neyamat from Allah was not properly appreciated by me. I was becoming arrogant in my mind. I started reading various books by writers who are against Islam. My wife also had a similar carrer progress. In one word both of us were heading away from the Rahama of Allah and enjoying the successes of this dunya.
Nabeel being waht he was, didnot want his abbu and ammu to suffer in the Akherat. He knew only way to bring us back was a hard strike. Simple sickness would be forgotten by us. So he was choosen by Allah to bring us back to the straight path. Nabeel has been very successful. He has been deprived of the neyamat of this world but Allah must have given him many times more. Ameen.
What do you think?
asqfish // March 25, 2008 at 3:26 am |
Asalaam o alaikum,
In my humble opinion,Allah must love Nabeel and his parents a lot. He (SWT) wants you back in the fold of His (SWT) love and it seems that you were there before but now even more. Allah knows best.
May Allah SWT place Nabeel in Jannat al Firdous and give his parents the opportunity to meet their beloved son in Jannat al Firdous. Ameen
Anisur Rahman // March 25, 2008 at 5:07 am |
Asalaam o alaikum.
Thank you so much. My brothers live in Houson and Phoenix. They are insisting on visiting them to have a change. I dont know. I donot feel like leaving Nabeel here. Do you think it is going to help.
regards,
asqfish // March 25, 2008 at 11:43 am |
Walaikum asalaam, that is a question you have to ask your heart and consult with your wife……and do what you feel is right.
asqfish // March 26, 2008 at 4:36 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum,
A while after Tariq’s death (may Allah give him Jannat al Firdous) I wanted a spiritual retreat .
I went to Sheikh Magroubis retreat and then went on for Hajj and then Alhamdollilah Allah SWT kept calling me back to His house and spreading His love and Rahma on me, several times, each time He (SWT) strengthened me with his love and protection, and thus I have survived long enough to write about it.
Going somewhere spiritual may be healing for both of you.
Anisur Rahman // March 26, 2008 at 8:34 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum. Thank you for your advice. Another question. My wife has not visited Nabeel’s grave for a single day. She says to take her there only once to bury her beside Nabeel. Although most of her waking hours are taken up by prayer for Nabeel or crying for him. She occassionally goes to the university to take classes. Should I try to persuade her?
Regards,
asqfish // March 26, 2008 at 11:11 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum,
Everyone grieves in their own particular manner, in my humble opinion one has to respect the other person’s way of grieving, and be supportive as much as possible.
Allah knows best.
May Allah give the mother of Nabeel the blessings that she gave Nabeel in raising him to be such a wonderful and caring young man.
Anisur Rahman // April 3, 2008 at 1:49 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. By the Grace of Allah you must have finished the formalities of Omrah by now and is back at home. Since I turn to you for almost all my queries, here is a question regarding a recent dream that I had. I shall be obliged if you could give me an ezplanation. This is the first time I dreamt Nabeel after he left us. I dreamt that along with two other tall bearded gentlemen in white dress whom I donot know, I was saying zanaza prayer for my son Nabeel. But Nabeel was a child of about 3 years and he was not dead. He was wearing a normal dress and playing with himself. I distictly remember asking myself, that how can we bury Nabeel when he is not dead and why are we saying the zanaza. Then I woke up. Can you give me an explannation. Regards,
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L. Atwa // April 9, 2008 at 3:16 pm |
Asalaamu Alaikum,
Sister I have a press release about Islamic Introductions, a Muslim Matchmaking Service that I founded. http://www.islamicintros.com. Insha’Allah I would like to send it to you to post. I think your readers will find the information very useful.
Please let me know where I can send it.
Ma Salaama
His Royal Freshness // April 15, 2008 at 2:37 pm |
assalamualikum……
i went through the writings above……i m sorry if i m intruding.
inshallah i shall pray to allah everyday every wakht of namaj for mufrad and also for tariq……
mufrad as i have learned from the postings was a wonderful person….i have searched his name in the google and i found out a lot about him….
Dr. Anis if u dont mind may i advice u a way which might make you stronger or give u some strength……
I think if you make pilgrimage to madina and makkah……i m sure u will fine some peace…..and there u can pray to Allah more closely too…….
and something else…….like u….hazrat mohammad (saw) also lost son…..try to find out hadith about that…that might help u to kno wht type of dowa u may offer…….
i hope my words doesnt bring u more pain……i have lost a family member…….pls pray for him…….and pray for me…..siraat e mustaqeem……so that i may walk in it….
asalamuailkum………
asqfish // April 15, 2008 at 4:57 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam wa barakatahu brother, You have made some very thoughtful suggestions. May Allah reward you.
Br. Anis, I am checking into the authentic book on Islamic dream interpretation and will forward the information to you as soon as I have it, inshallah!
Over all the gestalt of your dream seems to be very spiritually uplifting.
Lalomi Atwa // April 16, 2008 at 12:30 am |
Asalaamu Alaikum,
This is Lalomi Atwa following up on my request to submit a press release for your review and publishing.
Ma Salaama
asqfish // April 16, 2008 at 5:00 am |
Walaikum Asalaam,
Unfortunately I don’t do commercial postings, however if you like you can post your website info under one of the marraige posts in the comment section, and interested readers will contact you.
I hope I have not offended you, may Allah guide your good work.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan
Abdur Rahman // April 17, 2008 at 4:25 am |
Salaams Asqfish,
Ma sha Allah! An interesting and worthy blog. Allah help you in your quest.
Abdur Rahman
Anisur Rahman // April 25, 2008 at 4:07 am |
Dear sister,
Assalamualaikum. I hope you have not forgotten about the dream interpretation
Regards
asqfish // April 25, 2008 at 6:19 am |
walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullah hu wa barakatahu,
I have not forgotten, Inshallah, I will have the resource to you as soon as I hear.
I have the request in for the authentic source, which I will forward to you.
Jazaailk Allah hu Khairan.
asqfish // April 25, 2008 at 6:26 am |
Brother Abdur Rahman,
walaikum as salaam wa rahmatullahu wa barakatahu
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan, please keep me in your prayers.
Anisur Rahman // May 22, 2008 at 3:43 am |
Dear Sister Asqfish
Assalamualaikum. I hope you are doing fine by the Grace of Allah.
Just to say hello.
Regards,
asqfish // May 23, 2008 at 8:39 am |
Walaikum Asalaam,
I have a few challenges coming up, my friend of twenty years died in a car wreck this weekend.
Tariqs graduation is next weekend.
How are you doing? I have not forgotten your questions about medical care and the fixed time of death, I just have not been together to write it in a coherent fashion.
My salaams to the family.
Anisur Rahman // May 24, 2008 at 8:07 pm |
Dear sister,
Assalamualaikum. I am sorry to hear about your friend. I have realized one thing, there are people in this world who are always followed by misfortune! Again there are people who never know what is pain. I cant explain.
I have all the time in the world. One thing suddenly struck me, if I to die, you will never know what happened to me.
Regards. May Allah always shower on you His Rahmat and blessing. You are truly a nice human being.
asqfish // May 24, 2008 at 11:01 pm |
walaikum aslaaam,”I was blessed for so many years with everything. I can only say that it is Allah’s promise, that the more trials there are in this life, the easier it will be in the next.
I pray for your family and Nabeel, and Inshallah will continue to do so.
Just the way you found this blog, finding people is not difficult. If it is really needed, Allah makes it easy.
Thank you for your duas, I need them, to lift the cloud I am under.
May Allah bless you and your family and may you find the affection of your son from an unexpected source. Ameen
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan.
Anisur Rahman // May 29, 2008 at 3:19 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaiku.
Like the petal of the roses…… is one of the best and moving writing that I have come across. Even in my grief stricken heart, I feel your pain more. I some time wonder, the love, the affection, the tears that I have given for my son, were they all wasted. There is nothing for me to show for the last 20 years.
asqfish // May 29, 2008 at 9:21 am |
Walaikum Asalaam brother,
I was about to write that you should write often so we all know that you are doing alright.
One of the sisters who also reads the blog and also lost a son has gone for Ummrah and will inshallah pray for you and me and our children.
In my humble opinion. grief is an overt symptom of missing your loved ones and wanting them to be with you because they filled an important slot in your heart, which now aches with emptiness (sort of like a dry socket in dental terms).
Inshallah we do not need anything to show to anyone here, as long as we keep striving to please Allah.
Even though it may seem all our efforts are wasted, but none, not even one small gesture to get closer to him escapes Him(SWT) nor does our pain,but He is the Shafi, the healer.
I feel His (SWT) love but being a mortal I still miss my son’s love.
Inshallah I will be going to Tariq’s friends graduation, please keep me in your prayers.
May Allah grant you sabr and istiqamaat for those two traits will surely rejoin you with your son in Jannah Inshallah.
Do write when you can it is always a solace to hear from you and to accompany you in your journey in search of sabr and solace.
jazaaik Allah hu Khairan.
Anisur Rahman // June 4, 2008 at 7:51 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamu alaikum.
I hope you are back from Tariq’s graduation and everything went well by the Grace of Allah. I did pray for you and Tariq in my humble way. I am always praying for 3 persons other than Nabeel. Sohel my colleague of 18 years who was murdered, Tariq, Rana, one of my patients.
Please keep Nabeel and my family in your prayers. Request your friends to do the same. Nabeel’s 21st birthday is on the 14th. Any advice.
Regards,
asqfish // June 4, 2008 at 9:42 pm |
walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah wa barakatahu,
I am back from Tariq’s graduation, it was a true rite of passage, only once in the procession I felt that perhaps he would have walked besides his roomate.
The evening before the graduation was very touching and I will try to write about it later.
Birthdays and Holidays are painful. A close friend of mine gave me advice that brings me solace: She said take the money you would have spent on a gift for Tariq on his birthday or Eid and buy a similar thing for another disadvantaged boy his age.
I have tried to do that, and it brings some relief. the first birthday after his death was very painful, Leis arrived from Hawaii from his friends parents. Leis which mean “hello and goodbye”.
My friend who gave me the advice also said that after death the best gift is the recitation of the Quran, and the dead wait for their gift of the Quran.
II also read Manzil at his grave many times, but most of all I listened to Farhat Hashmi’s tafseer and it put life events in perspective, especially the section on Ayub (AS).
At Tariq’s graduation, I tried not to think of “what if” because Prophet Muhammad said we cannot change past events. If there is anything to learn ,we should learn that and move forward with taqwa. I am trying but it gets lonely and I miss Tariq.
Perhaps I will see him in The Garden.
Inna lil lahi wa inna elayhe rajaeown.
How are you and Nabeel’s Mom and grandparents holding up?
Anisur Rahman // June 8, 2008 at 1:48 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamulaikum. I am glad that you are back. I can imagine the pain and the loneliness. Myself and my wife were always career oriented. When we came home we got busy with our work. Only Nabeel was the common point at home. What ever time we spent togethar it was because of Nabeel. With him gone the house has become really lonely. We thought of moving in with our parents but I suppose none of us want the change after so many years. They live very close to us. One of Mina’s aunt whose husband died recently is staying with us at present. But she is from UK and has to go back in a month. I am afraid to even think what will happen. I suppose Allah will show a way. Mina is still in a trance, like a suspended reality. My parents are stable, although they do breakdown completly from time to time. For Nabeel’s birthday we have given new dress to all the children in an orphanage, and arranged for food for children in three orphanage on the day. As for us we will try to do as much as possible in prayers as you have suggested. Pray for us.
As for me I still cant believe this has happened to me.
Regards
asqfish // June 8, 2008 at 11:14 am |
Inshallah Allah will cloak you with His mercy. If you can, do go and eat with the children at the Orphanage, you will find that your heart will fill with compassion and Allah’s mercy.
May Allah protect you and guide you through this maze of grief.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan.
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nizam // June 29, 2008 at 6:09 am |
Peace and blessings of Allah Almighty be upon all of us.
I once did a google alert for “controlling nafs” and from then on I have been receiving many articles relating to that topic , Alhamdulillah. My heart goes out to you in the loss of your son. May Allah azzawajal forgive him and have mercy on him and open a place in the Jannh for him. IMy wife and I too have been blessed with a son , Muzzammil,19, and a daughter Nura,17.You did not lose him .He did not belong to you. He belonged to Allah SWT. It is His prerogative to do with your son, whatever He( Allah ) pleases. Last friday’s khutbah related to this very situation, i.e. accepting Allah’s will. I would like to send you the link, so u can download and listen. Inshaallah.
Here it is:http://upload2.net/page/download/74tA48E3rizltrk/Khutba27June2008+2QueenStPosTTWIMlnaMftiWaseem.wav.html
Type it into address bar.scroll down to download link, and follow instructions. e-mail me or if u use “skype” my skype name is muznur.we can talk. The service is free.
May Allah SWT keep us all on His path.
asqfish // June 29, 2008 at 8:43 am |
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan Brother, may Allah bring you the best in this world and the next. I was feeling very sad for the past 24 hours despite all my efforts.
I will listen to the Khutba. Thank you for sharing your duas and encouraging both brother Anis and myself and our families.
Please keep us in your duas.
Anisur Rahman // July 13, 2008 at 12:35 am |
Dera Sister,
Assalaualaikum.
Many days back you promised to look into the matter and discuss about Allah’s decree and our efforts in treating the sick. Another request was for interpretetion of a certain dream.
I am sorry to bother you like this but I have so little time. I am planning a change in career. I donot want to continue as a doctor when I could do little to save my baby. If it is really true that no prayer and no human effort can change what has been decreed then why spend the time and effort? I have been treating patient for last 26 years and I have more then 1500 students who are now doctors treating multitude of patients. If all these were decided and nothig can change these then I donot want to be a doctor any more.
Regards
Anisur Rahman // July 13, 2008 at 1:43 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamu alaikum.
I think I was a little uncontrolled in my preveous post to you. The fact is now a days I am really at a loss. With time people are gradually settling in their own life, which is natural. I am left with the pain and emptyness. I cant share my pain with my wife and parents as it causes them more anguish. I am getting more and more helpless as the days are passing by.
regards,
asqfish // July 16, 2008 at 9:26 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullahi wa barakatahu,
Firstly you dream interpretation is a difficult subject as I am not an expert on it, but Yasir Qadhi has a CD on it available at ilmquest.org, and I think it is in the CDs titled “Dua the weapon of the believer”
As far as Qadr it is a complex subject and I too am in the process of study, but here is a link with some authentic explanation from Sheikh Magroubi on Al Qada wal Qadar:
http://www.aswatalislam.net/DisplayFilesP.aspx?TitleID=50017
I hope that helps.
As far as changing your profession, I would strongly urge you to do istikharah, continuously till you find circumstances being changed by Allah SWT in one direction or the other.
I feel if I am a doctor I can serve people and make it a part of my worship. There are not many jobs that accomplish both purposes.
I think we have to draw the line in our lingo and in the erroneous belief that “we heal people”
We should not say “I healed my patient” we should say “Allah SWT healed my patient, I am just His means for doing so”
As far as death, I don’t think we ward off death, because people have been near death and survivied and vice versa despite the fact that we did our max but we could not change the time of death.
It is western secular literature that makes us think we can ward off death, we work hard to get the patient in the best possible health, but we do not know if he will die or not, nor predict his or her time of death. We can only quote statistics and sometimes they come true.
Thus we advise our patients what is most likely to happen in the circumstances depending on the disease based on past history of the disease, but do we know for certain if that will happen? and does it always happen as the literature states?
This requires food for thought and submission to the Almighty and the acceptance of the honor He (ST) has given us with humility to be His means of being a “SHAFI” or Healer, but that too is only though His SWT izm.
Allah knows best.
asqfish // July 16, 2008 at 9:36 pm |
Brother let me again urge you to seek solace at the House of Allah. Believe me no living being can give you what He(SWT) gives you, when you ask at His door.
Anisur Rahman // July 19, 2008 at 1:53 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum. First of all let me apologise for my insensetive behaviour in sending the last mail on the 13th. I realized the significance of the day later on. My duaas as usual are for Tariq along with my son.
Thank you for the references that you sent. Inshallah I shall follow these.
Believe me I am trying my best to get solace from Allah and His prophet. Although I had been saying my prayers etc for a long time but never with the devotion and the sincerity as of now. But as soon as I stand for salat, my son’s painful face, looking at me helplessly through deep yellow eyes, just before he was put on the ventillator, stares at me. I cant get it out of my mind. Every salat becomes a emotional trauma for me. My son used to say his salats regularly. The night before he was put on the ventillator, he asked me to massage his legs as there was severe pain. I did it all night. He was having hiccup which was giving him lot of pain. I was telling him abbu pray to Allah. He looked at me and said “Abbu He is not listening”. These words ring in my ear again and again.
Dear sister forgive my aimless words.
Ameena Huq // August 12, 2008 at 1:30 pm |
Dr. Anisur Rahman,
I have seen your son’s (Nabeel) photos as well as your comments. It really touches my heart. I am one of the relatives of Shayaan (19 years old) who was died in Arizona. I went their when he was in life support very hard situation. It was such a sad accident even for us it was so difficult to handle. His parents and sister came from back home. Shayaan’s parents took him back home. That was the biggest burden a man can carry. Any way God grant you and your family peace.
asqfish // August 12, 2008 at 11:23 pm |
Brother Anis, Asalaaamoalaikum,
Sister Ameena.s words are the dua that we all make for you your family and Shayaan;s parents.
May Allah forgive us and give us sabr e jameel.
Ameen
Anisur Rahman // August 13, 2008 at 4:19 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. I am glad to hear from you again. I hope the marrige of your daughter has gone off smoothly by the Grace of Allah. We are doing well physically Alhamdulillah but psychologically we are gradually spiriling into an abyss. I am trying very hard and your advice and reflections in the blog is very helpful.
Dear sister Ameena. Shayan is from the same school, Scholastica, as my son. In fact they were in the same year but in different sections. Also Shayan left Scholastica after O level. Shayan had sent a condolance message to his sister regarding Nabeel only few days before his accident.
I thank you for your duas. You have absolutely no idea how heavy this burden is.
Regards,
asqfish // August 13, 2008 at 6:43 am |
Allah SWT will make it easy for all of us inshallah. My daughter got engaged to a fellow student who took shahada early in July.
Tariq and Im’s best friend got married, and for me his wedding was like it would have been Tariqs, and thus the post titled “words” was for him and his bride. May Allah keep them happy and on the path to jannah always.
Br. Anis, Allah SWT has given you tremendous strength inside you, but the darkest hour is before dawn, the dawn o fHis (SWT) Rahma.
Look around you how many young men Nabeel’s age He (SWT) has sent you, think of them as your sons.
Reciting Yaseen after Fajr has helped me along with a dua after wards for the people suffering in this world and then for our children and elders.
May Allah accept our duas. Ameen
Ameena Huq // August 14, 2008 at 12:54 pm |
Dear Sister asqfsh & Dear Brother Anisur Rahman,
Nice to hear from you. I pray for Tareq, Nabil and Shayaan. I saw Shayaan grow infront of my eyes when I think about him I think about Tareq and Nabil as well. I hope they all are in paradise. I lost my dad when I was very young. Whenever I read brother Anisur Rahman’s letters I always think may be my dad was also felt that way. God grant you peace I try to do some duas I like to share with you.
Our Lord! Grant us good in this world and good in the life to come and keep us safe from the torment of the Fire. Qur’an (2:201)
Our Lord! Bestow on us endurance and make our foothold sure and give us help against those who reject faith. Qur’an (2:250)
Our Lord! Take us not to task if we forget or fall into error. Qur’an (2:286)
Our Lord! Lay not upon us such a burden as You did lay upon those before us. Qur’an (2:286)
Our Lord! Forgive us our sins and the lack of moderation in our doings, and make firm our steps and succour us against those who deny the truth. Qur’an (3:147)
Our Lord! Whomsoever You shall commit to the Fire, truly You have brought [him] to disgrace, and never will wrongdoers find any helpers Qur’an (3:192)
Our Lord! Behold we have heard a voice calling us unto faith: “Believe in your Lord” and we have believed. Qur’an (3:193)
Our Lord! Forgive us our sins and efface our bad deeds and take our souls in the company of the righteous. Qur’an (3:193)
Our Lord! And grant us that which you have promised to us by Your messengers and save us from shame on the Day of Judgement. Verily You never fail to fulfill Your promise. Qur’an (3:194)
Our Lord! We have sinned against ourselves, and unless You grant us forgiveness and bestow Your mercy upon us, we shall most certainly be lost! Qur’an (7:23)
Our Lord! Place us not among the people who have been guilty of evildoing. Qur’an (7:47)
Our Lord! Lay open the truth between us and our people, for You are the best of all to lay open the truth. Qur’an (7:89)
Our Lord! Pour out on us patience and constancy, and make us die as those who have surrendered themselves unto You. Qur’an (7:126)
farhana khan // August 14, 2008 at 12:57 pm |
God bless you all.
asqfish // August 14, 2008 at 8:41 pm |
Asalaam oalaikum Sister Ameena and Sister Farhana, I am deeply touched by your compassion, love and prayers.
May Allah reward you in all possible ways.
I will try to memorize some of the duas you have sent.
Please keep us in your duas.
khan // August 15, 2008 at 1:28 am |
assalamualeikum ai rahmatullah…..
tariq…shayan….nabeel….mashallah all of them are soo lucky……they are soo lucky mashallah…..to have left behind such wonderful parents and friends…i believe everyday not a moment passes by without som1 praying for them…..mashallah everyone is praying for them…..i knew nabeel..not personally but one of my past neighbours…and i know where his grave is…..one of my family members grave is close by to his…..almost everyday i go there i see som1 is always there…..som1 is alwas there…..irrespective of the time…..oneday i saw 2 boys…just 2 days back……one of them was crying soo much……i went up to him and sat beside him…..i wanted to ask him how he is related to nabeel….he din say nething….but beneath all the crying he was praying…..it occured to me that how lucky is nabeel that som1 prays for him so intensly…..after he finished his prayers we toked…..he was one of his friends…..mashallah…..that day in my prayers i prayed to allah that i may have such friends….may allah give strength to nabeel’s tariq’s and shayaan’s family and may he grant these innocent children his promised paradise……
asqfish // August 15, 2008 at 7:12 am |
Ameen!
Brother thank you for sharing this with us, it is very heart warming and comforting.
May Allah brings you the best of companions and may the best of friends of this world become the friends of Jannah. May ALlah SWT cast an eye of Rahma on you as your words has cast on us.
JazaaikAllah hu Khairan.
Ameen.
Ameena Huq // August 17, 2008 at 9:33 am |
Dear Sister Asqfsh & Brother Anisur Rahman,
ASM. I hope you are doing well. I am doing fine by the Grace of Almighty. Brother I always see Nabil’s photo in facebook. Very nice photos. Sister is there any way I can see some Tareq’s photos.
Thank you for your response.
Ameen.
asqfish // August 17, 2008 at 5:48 pm |
Walaikum as salaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu!
Tariq and Ims picture is on the post “sons”
Please keep us in your prayers,
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan
Ameena Huq // August 18, 2008 at 11:46 am |
Dear Sister Asqfish,
I could not find out Tariq’s photos. Can you tell me more details if possible.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan
asqfish // August 18, 2008 at 1:53 pm |
Tariq & Im looking out to the horizon…and perhaps their future?
http://asqfish.wordpress.com/2008/06/12/sons%E2%80%A6%E2%80%A6%E2%80%A6%E2%80%A6%E2%80%A6%E2%80%A6%E2%80%A6/
Ameena Huq // August 19, 2008 at 3:42 pm |
Life is full of sorrows and pains. Why God gives us so much pain. Why he made this world so tough. Why people suffers so much in their life. Why small children are starving for food and don’t get any support. Why people cry all the time.
Ameena Huq // August 29, 2008 at 3:15 pm |
Dear Sister Asqfish & Brother Anisur Rahman,
Asalaam ‘Alaikum
Blessings Of Allah On You! A warm and heartfelt Ramadan wish for your near and dear ones. I hope you guys are doing well. I know it will be very hard for you to celebrate Holly month of Ramadan and Eid . But still we have to live our life.
Abu Hurairah (RA) reported that the Messenger of Allah (SAW) said,
“There are three people whose supplications are not rejected. The fasting person when he breaks the fast, the just ruler and the supplication of the oppressed”.
[at-Tirmidhi]
asqfish // August 29, 2008 at 6:27 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu.
Thank you so much for keeping us in your prayers.
Allah SWT is showing me some possibility that I may be able to go for the last ten days of Ramadan for itikaaf in the Haram in Mecca.
Please pray that this wish comes true and that I make the journey in health and awareness.
It is because of beautiful people like you that br. Anis and I and our families find solace.
May Allah SWT never touch you with the finger of grief, not now not ever and may He give you the best in this world and the the best in the Hereafter.
Ameen
Anisur Rahman // August 31, 2008 at 2:02 pm |
Dear Sister ASqfish and Ameena Huq,
Assa;amualaikum. Thank you for your duas. Ramzan starts in Bangladesh from 2nd of Sept. This is the first time in my 52 years of life I feel that I am in one to one term with Allah. It is said that no evil can rest in the mind of the grief stricken, because it occupies the soul completly. I intend to use this oppurtunity given to me by Nabeel. Pray for me, my wife and my parents.
Sister Asqfish I am happy for you. Inshallah you will be going to Makka, Remeber this brother in your prayers. I was in a daze for such a long time that by the time I wanted to make the Hajj this year the quotas have all been finished. KSA puts a quota on the number of Bangladeshis allowed for Hajj. Inshallah I shall make the bookings for next year early. I suppose Allah decided that I am not yet worthy of visiting His House.
Regards,
asqfish // August 31, 2008 at 10:47 pm |
Alhamdollillah, Ramadan kareem to all! especially brother Anis and his family.
Br Anis if you have the desire to go to Allah’s house then indeed He (SWT) has embraced you.
May Allah SWT give you the opportunity to go for Hajj and before that inshallah for Ummrah with your family.
Ramadan Mubarak!
Ameena Huq // September 7, 2008 at 7:44 am |
Dear Sister Asqfish,
Asalaam ‘Alaikum.
Hope all is well with you. When you are leaving for Mecca. Please, sister pray for me specially.
Ramadan Mubarak!
Anisur Rahman // September 17, 2008 at 1:58 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamu alaikum. DoPlease remember my Nabeel when you visit the Holy Land.
Regards,
asqfish // September 17, 2008 at 5:23 pm |
walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah i wa barakatahu.
I had to cancel my Ramadan Ummrah as my husband had an accident. He fell from the ladder outside the house, and fractured his vertebra.
Alhamdollillah, Allah has been merciful and he is gradually progressing in his healing every day bit by bit, but remains in pain as you can expect from a spine fracture.
Nabeel along with Tariq, Im and Ebad is in my every prayer.
May Ramadan bring the best for you on Lailatul Qadr.
Please keep us in your prayers.
Ameena Huq // September 18, 2008 at 12:41 am |
Dear Sister Asqfsh & Brother Anisur Rahman,
Asalaam ‘Alaikum. Sister, sorry to hear your husband’s accident I hope he feels better. Please pray for us.
Brother Anisur Rahman, how are you? I always pray for Nabeel, Tariq and Shayaan. Shayaan’s parents are very sad and restless. He left us only three and half months ago.
May Allah SWT never touch you with the finger of grief, not now not ever and may He give you the best in this world and the the best in the Hereafter.
Ameen
asqfish // September 18, 2008 at 5:27 am |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah wa barakatahu Sister Ameena,
Your graceful prayers and your kindness in checking in is heartwarming.
May ALlah reward you for all the love and compassion you bring with your words.
Please convey my condolences to Shayaan’s parents and please tell them that inshallah Allah SWT will give him the best place in Jannah, since He took Shayaan so early in life.
and Shayaan inshallah will be waiting for them at the gates of jannah to accompany them in.
Jazaakallah hu Khairan.
asqfish // September 21, 2008 at 3:57 pm |
For Brother Anis.
Here is a new CD set on Dream Interpretation:
http://islamicbookstore.com/a5110.html
Dreams & Dream Interpretation (3 audio CD set) Imam Anwar al-Awlaki
Publisher/Manufacturer: Al-Basheer Company for Publications and Translations LLC (2008)
Product specifications: 3 CD set
Item type: CD set
Product description:
The LONG AWAITED Series�
About this series:
Allah Almighty says: �Behold! Verily on the friends of Allah there is no fear, nor shall they grieve; those who believe and guard against evil. For them are glad tidings, in the life of this world and in the Hereafter.�
The Messenger of Allah (pbuh) explained the glad tidings of the life of this world to be dreams. He said it is: �the good dream that a Muslim sees or is seen for him�
The world of dreams is an amazing and intriguing one. The early scholar of Islam Ibn Qutaybah says: �There is nothing that people deal with from the different sciences that is more obscure, delicate, exalted, noble, difficult, and problematic than dreams, because they are a type of revelation and a kind of prophethood�.
# CD1: Seventeen Rules of Dream Interpretations
# CD2: Dreams in the Quran and Hadith
# CD3: Dreams of the Companions and examples of interpretation from the book of Ibn Qutayba
ABOUT THE SPEAKER
Imam Anwar Al-Awlaki was born in New Mexico, USA. He studied the Islamic sciences of Quran, hadith, and fiqh with scholars from Yemen. Imam Anwar served as an Imam in Denver, Colorado; San Diego, California; and Falls Church, Virginia. He is the author of the audio series on �The Lives of the Prophets�, �The Hereafter�, �The Life and Time of Abu Bakr and Umar� �The Messenger of Allah� along with other single lectures.
Imam Anwar also holds a B.S. in Civil Engineering from Colorado State University, and a Masters Degree in Educational Leadership from San Diego State University.
Currently he resides in Yemen
Anisur Rahman // September 27, 2008 at 3:40 am |
Thank you sister. Lailatal Qadar is tonight. Last year I prayed with my son. I remember during the Eid prayer, the Imam was saying that next year many of us will not be here; at that time I never knew it will be so true for my son.
Thank you again for supporting me all these days. May Allah give you the best of everything in life and here after.
Regards
asqfish // September 27, 2008 at 4:18 pm |
Asalaamo alaikum brother Anis,
May Allah write a Qadr for us that brings us the type of good in this world that will make our Hereafter easy and allow us to join our boys in Jannat al Firdous, Inshallah!
Please keep me an dmy family in your prayers and pray for Shireen’s fiancee that Allah continue to give him strength and emaan , he took shahada in July.
Ameen
Anisur Rahman // October 4, 2008 at 1:10 am |
Dear Sister,
I was reading the preface of the English translation of the Holy Quran by Abdullah Yousuf Ali. There he mentions about a profound personal tragedy that was one of the factor that propelled him to do this. Do you know where I can get a biography. I searched the google but it come out very vague.
I would like to discuss a recent dream that I had which is very interesting. May I send you an email. If there is no problem then let me know.
Regards,
asqfish // October 4, 2008 at 11:14 am |
Asalaam o alaikum brother,
Abdullah Yousuf Ali’s biography is probably available with Islamicbookstore.com and if it is not I am sure they can order it, or maybe even Amazon.com.
I remember my mother mentioning this also, I will loook again on her shelf, but I don’t think she has it either.
You are welcome to send me an email, knowing that I have no knowledge of dreams and dream interpretation. Remember to cc it to your wife or some other mahram. This gives it the correct islamic etiquette of talking or should I say writing.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan.
Anisur Rhman // October 4, 2008 at 7:22 pm |
Dear Sister,
I always discuss your writings with my wife. You are also well known to my khala who came from UK to give company to Mina. She even took a number of printout of your postings to UK with her when she left last month.
I donot want any interpretetion but the dream is so out of the way that I need to share it with some one with knowledge of Deen. My wife and my parents know it. But I donot want to talk to anyone here at home because my intentions may be mistaken.
I shall need your email address.
Regards
Anisur Rahman // October 10, 2008 at 5:12 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. Did you receive my mail.
Regards,
Anisur Rahman // October 11, 2008 at 12:07 am |
Dear sister,
Assalamualaikum.
In all my sadness, today is specially painful for me. Nabeel’s friends are starting their clinical classes. Nabeel dreamt of this day. He was so much looking forward to this day. When he used to despair about anatomy classes I told him to wait for the clinical classes. He used to say”abbu taking care of patients would be so much interesting then workin with dead bodies”. Now the day has arrived and he is not here. It is so unfair and frustating. Lately he was always watching TV serials on hospital and asked me so many questions about hospital life.
Today I wish I was not a doctor. Sister pray for me pray that I can have sabr in my tormented soul.
asqfish // October 11, 2008 at 10:37 am |
Walaikum Asalaam Br Anis,
Every milestone is a test of sabr and painful. It is best approached with submission to Allah Subhanawataala.
You son inshallah is in a beautiful place, free of anxiety, depression and the temptation of sin. He completed what he had come to do in this world, and is now with His Lord under his Rahma.
You of course miss him, because he was an essential part of you and you love him. Allah Subhanawataala is the same way with us, we are His creation and He loves us and yet we are often disobedient to him or heedless of what he has asked us to do.
He says in the Quran that I have not asked you to do anything that is harmful to you……..and have only stopped you from doing something if it is harmful for you”
How does this relate to us and our children? Allah knows best, we have to trust him and in our sadness and torment remember Him continuously so He opens the window of light to brighten our souls.
I went to the cemetery yesterday, a beautiful fall sunshiny day, and I noted that my mother and my son are buried in ” the garden of truth”
May Allah Subanawataala allow you to get closer to him so that you can feel His infinite love.
Ameena Huq // October 12, 2008 at 11:54 pm |
Dear Sister Asqfish,
It is so great to read your writing. Sister you are very brave and understanding. I am proud of you.
Last month was a bad month for me. I suffered so much. Then I read your writing and that gave me mental support. Good job. Keep on helping us and teach us more about Islam.
Take care and be a happy person.
RS // October 24, 2008 at 6:31 am |
Assalamualaikum,
This blog is given the “Butterfly Award”….i hope that you could paste the banner somewhere in this blog
Wassalam..
asqfish // October 24, 2008 at 7:40 am |
Dear RS how do I do that?
Anisur Rahman // November 11, 2008 at 1:11 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. Yesterday was my 53rd birtday.
Alhamdulillah. I am grateful to Allah
1. I was born a Muslim.
2. I was born healthy without any congenital defect.
3. I have very loving parents who are still here after 53 years and still praying for me and taking care of me.
4. I was born in a family with strong religious and ethical values, with halal livelihood.
5. I was born in an educated family. All my siblings and their spouses are PhDs.
6. I have never known poverty of wealth or of affection.
7. I have been healthy all my life, without any serious illness even up to 53 years.
8. I have been educated to the highest level in the most prestigious institutions at home and abroad.
9. I have been most successful in my educational carreer.
10. I have a very successful career, with name and fame all over the country.
11. I am considered rich by my country’s standard.
12. I am healthy to say my salat, keep fast.
13. I have a loving family.
14. I had a son who was healthy all his life. He was good looking, polite, gentle, humble and pious.
15. He came out at the top of his class all the time.
16. We never had any problem with him at any stage of his life.
17. In his 20 tears he gave us joy, love, affection and brought honor to us that many people donot get even in 80 years.
So today on my 53rd birthday I pray to Allah to express my gratitude, and pray that I can pass the extreme test that He has put me through. Even in my shattered soul I believe in His decree He did what is best for me and my Akherat. Ameen
asqfish // November 11, 2008 at 5:42 pm |
ALHAMDOLLILAH! May Allah Subhanawataa’la accept your Sabr and Shukr.
Enjoy your birthday, the best you can with your family, friends and patients, they all love you inshallah!
Please keep us in your prayers.
Anisur Rahman // November 11, 2008 at 6:26 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. The reason why I made a list is to make myself understand. I made the list and studied it for a long time. I found that Allah Has given me all my life. Bounties beyond all my aspiration. Now that He has taken something, that too such a pure soul as Nabeel, there must be a reason. I have to look harder and deeper. Pray for me so that I can know true answer before I am called to Him.
Regards
asqfish // November 13, 2008 at 9:34 pm |
walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah i wa barakatahu brother,
My prayers are with you, inshallah you are on the Path to Him Subhanawataala…..He has been waiting for you. May He accept all your prayers and your tears and give you Nabeel at the gates of Jannah! Inshallah.
Anisur Rahman // November 18, 2008 at 3:43 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum.
I would like your help in solving a small problem. During my studies of Quran and the Hadith, I have made many photocopies and notes which have the verses or their translation. How to dispose of these papers with the verses of the Quran, without showing disrespect.
Thanks in advance.
Regards
asqfish // November 18, 2008 at 7:25 am |
Walaikum Asalaam,
As far as I know, you can burn them or shred them so that the words are not together.
Perhaps some of the readers can contribute more info.
A tip from my youngest brother:
A nice way to carry photocopied pages of the Quran to memorize or read in your pocket or briefcase on a trip is to slip them in a clear plastic page cover. They stay clean and untouched and yet accessible for reading, and after you have completed it you can do the above.
Allah knows best, He knows we are trying and mean no disrespect to His word in intent and action.
Anisur Rahman // December 6, 2008 at 3:41 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum. Yesterday was the day, when one year back Nabeel was put on ventillator. The last time I talked to him was at 10:35 AM. It is getting more and more painful. My grief one year back was like a fast flowing river, now as if the water has entered a flood plain. The volume is much more but not as visible as before. Pray for me sister. I am still waiting for that streak of dawn after the darkness of night. Pray for Nabeel. Please ask your friends and companions to pray for him. I am truly tired. I hope I can some how pass through 16th of Dec. It is the victory day for Bangladesh, but it is the day when I met with ultimate defeat.
Regards
asqfish // December 7, 2008 at 5:38 am |
Walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullah he wa barakatahu Brother Anis,
This is a difficult time, life events run through like a movie, try and make dua and superimpose that tape with the happy times. Visualize Nabeel laughing and happy whenever the picture of the ICU arises in your head and repeat to yourself “Inna lil lahi wa inna elayhe rajaeown” till the acute difficulty abates.
Alllah SWT places his amanah (Nabeel) in the homes of His best people to be raised and loved as a believer. In your home and in mine he gave us his very best as amanah.(Nabeel & Tariq)
In this fast corrupting world, despite our efforts, perhaps Allah SWT could not bear to leave His amanah Nabeel &(amp; Tariq) for long, and because they were as cherished to Him or perhaps more than they were to us.
We too are His amanah and He wil reclaim us at the given time.
Meanwhile know that Nabeel is in the best possible of places in all the worlds. He is well cared for and he is without the pain of dunya. You loved and raised your son the best you could, and it is just the inability to see him that is the source of your sadness. Pretend that he has gone to see a loving relative, in this case Allah Subhanawataala who loves him more than any relative could. Here is what I pray when in a similar situation: an all encompassing prayer is:
Allah SWT you know that I loved my son and did the best I could.
May Allah forgive all his sins
May Allah forgive my mistakes in his tarbeeh as they were inadvertent.
May Allah give, solace, sabr and guidance to those of us who are left behind.
O Allah I miss Nabeel (Tariq) and I cry for that reason , though I know that you are the best Keeper of Keepers and I also know that my love for Nabeel (Tariq) is only 1% of all the possible love and Rahma, and that you in your infinite Grace shower upon your bandas the other 99% of Love and Rahma, O Allah Subhanawataala, please shower it upon me and heal my heart, and teach me how to get my solace in prayer.
Please forgive my sins, and do not allow me to say or do anything disobedient to you.
Please give me the best in this world and the best in the Hereafter and give me passage into the gardens of Jannah with your righteous companions.
and then this dua of the Prophet (PBUH):***
O Allaah, I am Your servant, son of Your servant, son of Your maidservant, my
forelock is in Your hand, Your command over me is forever executed and Your decree over me is just. I ask You by every name belonging to You which You name Yourself with, or revealed in Your Book, or You taught to any of Your creation, or You have preserved in the knowledge of the unseen with You, that You make the Qur’aan the life of my heart and the light of my breast, and a departure for my sorrow and a release for my anxiety.
Ameen
Allah Subhanawataala does not place a burden on us that we cannot bear. Inshallah for you and me this pain too shall pass.
Inshallah we will be praying for you, your family and Nabeel at our tafseer group and on Arafah day before the opening of the fast whence supplications are best accepted.
May Allah Subhanawataa’la ease your sorrow.
***available at http://www.makedua.com/display_dua.php?sectionid=34
Anisur Rhman // December 7, 2008 at 12:23 pm |
Dear sister
Ameen Ameen Ameen
Ameena Huq // December 11, 2008 at 11:13 am |
Dear Sister Asqfsh,
Assalamualikum, I like your writing and the sabar you have. Alllah SWT gives us strength and courage to survive in this cruel world. God, people are so busy with themselves. Only God can save us.
I hope and pray for your happier life. Sister why God make this world so hard?
Anisur Rahman // December 13, 2008 at 3:05 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum. Nabeel left us on the 16th Dec of last year at around 4:30 PM (BDT). We are arranging for a dua mahfil on that day. We have also arranged for special meals in several madrasa and prayer sessions.
Sister I would request you and your friends to specially pray for him on that day.
Regards,
asqfish // December 13, 2008 at 7:12 am |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu!
It will be a difficult day for you and your family, try and stay together if you can.
Ahamdollillah! this too shall pass.
Inshallah, we will be making dua for you and your family and for Nabeel. May he be given the best place in Jannah and for his parents inshallah to earn a place next to him.
May Allah Subhanawataa’a fill your heart with sabr and salaat.
soheli // December 16, 2008 at 12:42 pm |
I have been reading this blog for the last few days with a very heavy heart. I was in close contact with Nabeel and Mina apa during Nabeel’s Rutgers time. Nabeel one day asked me, ‘have you talked to ammu lately (over phone)?’. I said ‘no’. He promptly said,’ good, if you happen to talk to ammu, don’t tell her that I am fasting, she will be worried.’ It was Ramadan. Nabeel kept on fasting almost for the whole period, except 2/3 days of his exam. I told him not to fast as he may fall sick or tired. He said,’No, no, I am fine’. I also saw him rushing to the nearby mosque at the Busch campus one day.
Today I attended the doa mehfil at Nabeel’s residence. Nabeel keeps coming back to my mind over and over again. I keep Nabeel in my prayers along with my children and few other persons personally related to me.
I read surah Yasin as soon as I heard that Nabeel was on life support last year. My rears were rolling down my face while I was reading the Surah. I experience the same feeling whenever I think of Nabeel now. May he be granted the best place in Zannat.
I am sorry for posting my feelings, as I could not keep myself away from being a part of the blog. I fail to imagine beyond a certain point when I try to situate myself and my son in the same position of Mina apa, Anis Bhai and Nabeel. The pain is unbearable.
Farhana Rana // December 21, 2008 at 2:40 pm |
Salam.Dear Uncle”Anis”,I`ve been reading this blog 4 last an hour & a half quietly and those old memories started whrilling around me.I couldn`t help myself in leaving my comment. My heart`s already broken into countless pieces after my Rana`s departure U know.A year ago U ,I used 2 call U “Respected Doc”. I was disturbing all those Docs,sisters,security guards of Apollo who was related wz Rana, like nothing but Hell…but I was xtrmly desperate & didn`t care 4 a second that what other might think. Still I can remember the day when Nabeel got inside the CCU..Ufff,itz totally unbearable. But U know uncle What????Those 2.5 months of Apollo changed me in everyway.Even now I`m not familiar wz my present nature.Now-a-days when I used 2 look at D mirror,every time I wonder about myself…Uncle,I`ll mail U soon.I didn`t write any mail 2 U after Hajj. Actually 4 past few days I was searching 4 Islamic groups over Facebook,so cldnt get enough time 4 writing besides fwd ing 3/4 mails. Today I wrote Rana`s full name & clicked D google search,found 2/3 old documents of GP, nothing new..but when I clicked D search bar by writing Nabeel`s name,to my utter surprise..Ma`sha`Allah I`ve found 221 results! I felt a heartache 2 see Rana & Nabeel`s name the way itz there in D web..They were there after their departure….Uncle, day by day this world`s turning more meaningless to me…. Now `m counting my moments to meet Allah(SWT) & In`sha`Allah surely He will grant me my Rana again the moment I`ll meet Him(SWT). I`m trying my best to prepare myself on D right way;the way of Allah(SWT),Prophet Muhammad(SAWS) & the the Siraat-ul-Mustaqeems. My prayer`s always there for Nabeel along wz my Rana.Also I`ll Pray 4 Tariq,Ebad & othrz In`sha`Allah.May Allah(SWT) forgive all of us & bless us wz Khairah, Rahmah,Baraqah,A`afiyah,Najah,Magfirah, Hidayah,Taqwah,Neyamahs..Ameen..Ameen..Ameen..Uncle, convey my salam,love & heartfelt regards 2 aunt Mina.. My special regardsz there4 Respected Asqfish,`m sorry as `m a new person here & don`t know that much about U beside this blogs of Uncle Anis. Would U mind if I call U”Aunt”? Anyway Jazak`Allah 4 such a wonderful blog.
Plz pray 4 my Rana, me,our parents,families & entire Muslim Ummah.
asqfish // December 21, 2008 at 7:16 pm |
Asalaam o alaikum Sr FR,
Your heart seems to also be hurting. You know that the only one who can heal it and set it free is Allah Subhanawataa’la.
May He give you the comfort, sabr and sakeena that He gives to His loved ones.
Do share your story with us.
You are welcome to call me Aunty. I will be honored.
Inna lil lahi wa inna elayhe rajaeown.
Anisur Rahman // December 22, 2008 at 12:03 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum. An old wise man consoled me once by saying that Nabeel will be irreplacable in your life but you will be surprised by the amount of affection that Allah (SWT) may provide from unexpected quarters.
As they days passed by, I am realizing the full meaning of his statetement.
May Allah grant us peace in this world and salvation in the next.
Regards
asqfish // December 22, 2008 at 9:25 pm |
Ameen sum Ameen!
Anisur Rahman // January 11, 2009 at 12:50 am |
Dear Sister
Assalamualaikum.
As the days go by people are getting more and more engrossed in their life, which is normal and expected. But my pain increases daily. I know I am not supposed to but everyday “what if?” and “whys” are simply gnawing my heart out. All my prayers and my efforts are not helping me. Do you think Allah Has sealed my heart and blocked me from all his Rahma?
Where is the solace, where is the peace. Is it a sin to pray for one’s death.
asqfish // January 13, 2009 at 3:00 pm |
WALAIKUM ASALAAM,
PLEASE CHECK TOMORROWS POST, INSHALLAH IT WILL HELP YOU TOO.
yarassouloulah sy ismail // January 26, 2009 at 4:41 pm |
thanks
Anisur Rhman // January 30, 2009 at 9:31 am |
Dear Sister,
Asslamualaikum. How are you doing. It has been a long time since I have received any inspiration from you. Donot forget this brother of yours.
Regards,
asqfish // January 30, 2009 at 7:42 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum Brother Anis,
I thought about Tariq, his friends and Nabeel a lot when I heard about Gaza.
I pray for the parents of the children of GAZA. You and I know the pain they are in.
I was just thinking that Tariq would be turning 24 this year, but he is a timeless world where there is no count of years and inshallah all the boys are in a good place and in good hands.
It is just that we are bereft and life has lost its verve.
May Allah Subhanawataala give you sabr and istiqamah, please keep me and my family in your prayers.
Anisur Rahman // January 31, 2009 at 12:42 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum.
You are right, to us Nabeel will always be 20 years old. So will be Tariq and others. They will remain everfresh in our minds and our prayers. As our prophet (PBH) has often told about asking for respite from old age. Nabeel, Tariq and others will never have the shrivled look of an old man. They are inshallah in a much better place, it is us who have the burden of living this life as well as carry the memories of our sons!!
Sister, in all my salats all day I pray for Tariq along with Nabeel. During my daily visit to Nabeel, I always mention Tariq in my prayers.
Please pray for Nabeel and for all of us.
Regards
asqfish // January 31, 2009 at 6:32 am |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu brother Anis,
Sometimes I wonder if I am filling my time with Deen so that I don’t have to think of the pain?
Allah Subhanawataala knows that I am trying to remember Him for Himself and no other reason, may he accept our prayers.
Nabeel, Tariq, Imran, Ebad and my parents and the muslim and muslimaat are in my dua maghfirah at every tashahud inshallah! May Allah give us health and strength to fulfil Allah’s rights till our last breath.
may Allah protect and guide you , please keep me and my family in your prayers.
Farhana Rana // February 4, 2009 at 8:50 am |
As’salamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Baraqatuhu.
Dear Aunt,
‘m xtrmly sorry 4 not responding on time..Actually I didn’t click in ur site 4 a long time.2day I clicked & felt ashamed 2 C that U’ve asked me something & I didn’t reply U back.. Again ‘m remorsefully sorry cuz Dz actz’re against D Real Mua’milaat & Mua’shiraat, which a practicing Muslim must care 1st..
Anyway, itz so tough 4 me 2 tell a new person about D tragedy of my life,simply I don’t find words 2 explain it. I’m a 27 yrz old widow. I got married on 28th of July,`07 at D age of 25 yrz & 9 months and lost my beloved husband,Rana, on Dec14,’o7 at D age og 26 yrz & 2 mnthz. My conjugal life lasted only 4 4 months & a half. My man was 31 yrz & 8 mnthz when he left this world. U know I had only A’aqd & our wedding reception was on Dec 17.My reception’s Mehendi was Dued on Dec15,Rana’s one was on Dec16 & our Boubhaat ( a part of the marriage ceremony in Bangladesh,itz kinda occassion)was on Dec18. But….nothing happened in reality.My dreams are doomed. My hubby became suddenly sick on Oct1 due 2 xtrm stomache,later D Docs dtected thru their diagonsis that itz “Acute Pancreatitis”, later it became a Necrotizing one. He was on the Ventilator for 73 days in D ICU, he fought & fought… but atlast cldnt make it atlast.. Dr.Rezaul Islam & Uncle Anisur Rahman treated him mainly. U know when he was terribly ill & everybody was speaking nagative words,I nvr believed dem either..I nvr blvd that really Rana’ll leave me.. We did whatever D Docs , D Ula’mas & othr adviced us 2 do.. We tried 2 save him but ALLAH(SWT) chose D best place 4 him & took him in HIS own custody, D best custody ever. I know no prayers are gone or wasted,surely ALLAH(SWT) has granted each & every words of mine & In’sha’ALLAH ‘ll grant now & always too, only I’ve to be patient till my last breath. I’ve no words about my fate,not at all. ‘m not angry wz ALLAH(SWT) or ‘ll nvr evr complain 4 anything. Cuz I blv in good & bad of Taqdeer and whatever comes 4m I’ve 2 accept it without any ques.. If I wanna shekayet 4 anything ,I do it wz ALLAH(SWT)..Alhamdulillah I see my hubby frequently in my dream & Ma’sha’ALLAH they’re so heavenly. Itz a neayamah 4m ALLAH(SWT) dat he allows me 2 C my Rana in my drmz,itz a true blessing ever.I know In’sha’ALLAH I’ll meet my husband in JANNAH..Plz pray 4 my Rana & me,now and always..In’sha’ALLAH ‘ll keep in touch.
Ma’as’salam.
asqfish // February 4, 2009 at 7:35 pm |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu,
May Allah subhanawataala, place the hand of solace on your cheeks.
Farhana Rana // February 11, 2009 at 12:00 pm |
Salam..JazakALLAH…Pray 4 all of us..4 D entire Ummah..
asqfish // February 13, 2009 at 8:05 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam, may Allah subhanawataala give you joy once again in life.
Yesterday our Imam said that if our husband our wife dies, we should seek to marry again as it is half of emaan.
May Allah Subhanawataala make it easy for you.
JazaaikAllah hu Khairan.
Anisur Rahman // February 13, 2009 at 9:30 pm |
Dear Sister,
Last night (Jumma) I saw my grandfather in a dream. He died 10 years back at the age of 90. This is the first time I have dreamt him. He was looking very fit and in white robe. He had come to pray for Nabeel whom I saw in the dream after about 1 year. Nabeel was in the ICU but at a much younger age. As my nana was praying by his side, I kissed Nabeel’s forehead. Everytime I did that he openened his eyes, looked at me with a sweet smile and then went back to sleep. He was looking so peaceful. Both my nana and Nabeel seem to be in a very happy mood.
One is suppose to share happy dreams that is why I have posted this.
Keep us in your prayer.
asqfish // February 14, 2009 at 1:35 pm |
Alhamdollillah! it seems that Nabeels has reached the next level, inshallah! and is at peace.
Inshallah you will also be at Peace soon, but the risk is that once you get that peace, you may forget Allah Subhanawataala’s love and become distracted with dunya once again, or you may be pulled back into the rat race, once people feel you are “over it”.
Beware of going back to who you were, you are inshallah in a much better place now with Allah Subhanawataala, may he continue you and me on his path towards jannah consistently in measured steps till we reach our destination.
Ameen.
Anisur Rahman // February 14, 2009 at 2:01 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum. I am dissapointed at your comment on me. How can I get over it? Every breath I take reminds me of my lost dream and my lost love. My eeman may falter as I am yet to attain that level, and my body some time crave for the good things in life. But loss of Nabeel is an event that is still beyond my belief. It is not pain but a state of mind where pain is my life.
Pray that Allah takes me away before I get over it.
Regards and pary forme.
asqfish // February 14, 2009 at 2:28 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam,
Perhaps I did not write it well, when one starts back to the rhythm of dunya people perceive that you ar”over it” and start loading you with dunya things………….that is what I am referring to.
Inshallah you are in a far better place than I am, I swing from the pressure to fulfill my obligations as perfectly as I can to just wanting to be with myself, Allah Subhanawataala and my memories…..
May He Subhanawataala guide us and help us, especially me!
Anisur Rahman // February 14, 2009 at 7:32 pm |
Dear sister,
Assalamualikum. May be because you still have Shirin and your maternal instinct for her well being guides you. Allah Has left you with the instrument for some degree of peace in this world. For me every thing has stopped.
Sister, pray for me. I still eagerly wait for some inspiration from your explanations of the deen.
Regards
ahsan siddiqi // February 14, 2009 at 9:39 pm |
Assalamualikum, to both of u. i just wanted to say some thing that might help. on jan 15, 2009. i lost my beloved wife. she was only 27 years old, she was also pregnant and the happiest person i know she always had a smile on her face. i have a son 5 years old, i have told him mommy went to heaven, but he doesnot understand. one thing i always believe is that your time on this earth is only so much you cannot live one second longer then what is decreed by Allah(SWT). i will tell u story, a week later i went to visit my wifes grave. i decided to get some flower for the grave, and the lady behind the counter asked me who are they for, so i told her about my departed wife. you wont believe it she told me that her mother passed away when she was 4 years old. she was over come with grief for my son and i. all im saying is that what happened to us is not unique, i do not mean to minimize your loss believe me one month fells like a decade. but i believe by the mercy of Allah(SWT) all our deceased are in jannah, and even though we long for then every second isnt it where we would all want to go once we leave this earth. one thing that helps me is making a lot of zikir and forwarding the reward to not only my dearly departed wife but also to all the departed muslims. INSHAHALLAH when we leave this earth, by the mercy of Allah(SWT) we will be with our loved ones in jannah. fill your heart with the zikir of Allah(SWT), send drood and salaam on our beloved Prophet as much as u can, and give as much charity as u can. and send all the reward to your deceased and all the deceased muslims, for Allah(SWT) is all Mighty, he will give and there will be no shortage for your loved one’s. may Allah(SWT) give you both, my son and i, and all the muslims who have lost a love one sabar.
asqfish // February 15, 2009 at 7:14 am |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu, brother Siddiqi,
I am deeply touched by what you have shared with all of us, and I am inspired by your deep faith and sense of place in this world and your absolute reliance on Allah Subhanawataala.
Thank you for your excellent advice, I just read words that reinforce yours…….in “The invocation of God” by Ibn qayyim Jawziya, that when a man who had died, was asked what did he regret most? He replied “those moments when my tongue was not moist with Allah’s Dhikr”
May Allah reward you for sharing this, for helping all of the bereaved readers, myself and brother Anis,I will read your note often to remind and re-orient myself to what is important forever.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairan, may Allah fill your heart with solace and sakeena that only He SWT can send.
Rubina Ghoor // February 15, 2009 at 7:32 am |
Assalamualaikum
I would love to share my life experience. My mum returned to Allah exactly three yrs ago. Alhamdulillah, the person i am today is not the one I was three yrs ago.
My mum was diagnosed with cancer and she survived for about four yrs after she was diagnosed. I read alot about alternate therapies and healing books. i did not want her to go through chemotherapy. MY life was hell, I wanted to control how she should be treated and when and by whom. My father is an extremely stubborn man and he would not listen to anything i said. He wanted to go his way. It was either his way or nothing . i realised that where my stubborness came from and i decided to surrender to his decisions for a while. i was never happy. in the process my poor mother had to witness all these arguements.
When my mum was at her last did i realise that its not about my dad or me or the doctor but that Allah was in control. It was painful , but the most profound revelation, as it was at that moment that I truly became Muslim. It was then that i felt the connection with Allah. Alhamdulillah, since then i feel Allah’s presence in my life and He is guiding my family and I all the time. My mum returning to Allah has been my submission and true surrendering to the will of Allah. Now i feel and i am getting to know Allah day by day, Subhan-Allah.
Allah has amazing ways of unveiling our hearts.
asqfish // February 15, 2009 at 8:04 pm |
walaikum asalaam Rubina,
May Allah reward you for sharing your heart with us and giving us inspiration to submit to Allah and our Qadr. You have done so at such a young age mashallah!
May Allah Subhanawataala continue to unveil our hearts, I await more words of inspiration from you, inshallah!
Anisur Rahman // February 15, 2009 at 11:55 pm |
Dear Brother Ahsan and sister Rubina.
Assalamualaikum. I am sorry for your loss. May Allah give you the strength to bear the loss and the strength to go ahead with life. At least you are in a better position to face life. Death of one’s wife or parents, however painful it may be, there is always the element of hope. Brother Ahsan you can go on as you have a son to raise, Sister Rubina you have a family to look after. But death of a child and if it is the only child brings the natural order to halt. You feel deprived and then angry and then hopelessness. It is the time when Iblis plays lot of tricks. It is difficult to hold on to the rope of deen. I am fighting the devil for last 14 months after the death of my only child. Alhamdulillah the crisis has brought me and my wife much closer to Allah then we ever were. I am grateful to Sister Asma for her inputs in this blog.
Please pray for us and my son Nabeel.
Regards
zehr // March 2, 2009 at 6:01 pm |
Plz have faith on Allah , He has created us and looks after us. It may sound cliche but sometimes i wonder If a mother who gives birth to a child loves him/her so dearly ,just imagine how much Allah loves HIS servant , HE created us from dust ! Who will take care of your sons ,and spouses and parents ,siblings etc better than Allah subhanawatala ?
Prophet (PBUH) said , anyone who believes in la ilaha illalah muhammadur rasullallah is going to jannah …Be happy that our children and parents and spouses who passed away were muslims Alhamdolillah and left on the faith that ‘theres no other deity worthy of worship but Allah and Prophet Mohammad (SW) was HIS messenger ‘ .. they were successful in their struggle and Inshallah in better company than us , so why worry ? Have trust on Allah ; This is a trial for all of us , our struggle to please Allah is ongoing as long as we are alive . So brothers & sisters , have faith that ur family is in better place and take care of your imaan & livelihood. our time is near.Salam to all.
“O Allah forgive the deceased muslims who bore witness to Your oneness and the message of Your Prophet and passed away upon this
O Allah forgive then , have mercy on them , pardon them grant them an honorable abode
and save them on the Day of judgement
and let them be foremost in entering Your loftiest garden .O Allah have mercyon Me when i too placed beneath the earth .O my Lord
I have come to Your door .Donot forsake me “
asqfish // March 2, 2009 at 8:47 pm |
Aslaaamoalaikum Zehr,
Your duas and your wisdom is a balm on my heart. May Allah reward you.
Anisur Rahman // March 5, 2009 at 11:43 am |
Dear Sister Zehr,
Assalamualaikum. I am grateful for your advice and dua. I am an average human being. But I am being asked to bear the burden of a superman. I am trying, as Allah is my witness I am trying very hard. There is a big difference between believing in a faith and living in the faith. It is one thing to say what ever Allah does is for the best while being surrounded by one’s family and saying the same thing standing in front of the grave of your only child. But I am trying. Every morning from Fazr to Isha, in each and every step that I take, in my eavery thought, I have my son’s memories and the fear that I shall let him down. My obsession with my son and my obsessions with the Akhira has become one. Even then the pain never gives me any respite. Can you tell me from your vast wisdom how I can live my life again. Or is it that I am already dead in my soul and only the body is going on with life…….May Allah protect you and sister Asma from all the evils of this life.
Regards,
Solace // March 6, 2009 at 11:19 am |
Just discovered your site from a comment you made on salaams.wordpress.com and I will definitely be stopping by often. Keep up the good work!
asqfish // March 6, 2009 at 11:53 am |
Asalaam o alaikum sister Solace
Alhamdollilah, thank you for your comment and please correct me with the Quran and Sunnah if I err in my comments or my posts.
May Allah guide us in all we do and say.
Jazaaik Allah hu Khairun.
z.r // March 7, 2009 at 10:56 am |
Assalaamualaikum wa rahmatullah
Umar bin abdul aziz (R.a) is reported to have said as he was covering over his young son’s body with sand ; “May Allah have Rahmah on you my son – you have always been a source of goodness for your father. I was always happy with you during your life(of righteousness and acts pleasing to Allah) and now by your death, i am more happy with you (by drawing me closer to Allah )”
SubhaanAllah, ya rabbi put in our hearts what you gave this ‘abd of yours whose happiness and unhappiness was measured only by closeness to his Rabb !!!
When he, (r.a) was once asked “what do you desire /love most for yourself?” He replied “Ma yaqdhillahu ‘azza wa Jal – whatever Allah, the Sublimely Majestic has decreed for me ” !!!
asqfish // March 9, 2009 at 8:05 pm |
Jazaaik allah Khairun, ZR for giving solace with the balm of faith and the example of sabir parents.
Anisur Rahman // March 17, 2009 at 3:37 am |
Assalamulaikum sister,
Thank you for your effort to tell us about Islam in such easy terms. I hope and pray Allah will give you the strength and understanding to continue this. Please pray for us. My Iman is so fragile. But I am trying.
Hope to hear from you soon.
Regrads
asqfish // March 17, 2009 at 9:10 pm |
Walaikum asalaam wa rahmatullahe wa barakatahu,
Allah Subhanawataa’ala will strengthen your emaan if you ask him……………and may you do so often and with sincerity.
Everyday our emaan goes up or down, I pray that it continues to go up because with it comes freedom anmd happiness.
Please keep me in your prayers.
zehr // March 19, 2009 at 9:10 pm |
Walaikum assalam Br Anisur Rahman
When i was/am in pain , i reminid myself this “Surely we come from Allah and surely to Him we return!Lord, reward me for my affliction and give me something better than it in return, which only You, the Exalted and Mighty, can give.”
read sahaba stories from sahaba.net , i know u read Quran , but ponder on every verse of quran .. Inshallah ur pain would lessen. This world , our children spouses wealth is just a test for us .. don’t give up yet . May be Allah has something big in store for u inshallah . Allah never does unjustice to anyone . i know it hurts to bury ur children , keep ur grip firm on the path of Allah , keep struggling ur success is near inshallah. soon we’ll all meeet our spouses, parents children siblings most importantly Our creator. The time is so near . How fast our life passed by . Some of us are 30 , some 40 50 years old etc … in a blink of an eye we turne 30 / 40 yo and how long will we survive another 30 0r 20 years ? This world is nothing , compare to the eternity that we are going. You’ve done so much good for hundreds of people , all those people loves you and grateful to you . But Allah is most loving , do u think He will not reward you for all ur goodness , all ur sufferings ? And His reward is far better than anything of the world. Ask Allah for patience
zehr // March 19, 2009 at 9:49 pm |
Do you think that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and hardship and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, “When (will come) the Help of Allah?” Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allah is near!
(Surah al-Baqarah, 2:214)
Anisur Rahman // March 22, 2009 at 4:14 am |
Dear Sister Zehr,
Assalamu alaikum. Thank you for taking the time and effort to show me the way. I understand everything you have said. I have gone through the Quran again and again, reading the translations from authentic sources. I have read the explanations again and again. But the pain is still so intense.
I am an ordinar person. Another ordinary person my friend X will die at a ripe old age surrounded by his children and grand children. He would have seen his children grow up, get married, have children of their own. My friend would die a contended man. Compared to that I shall have a lonley death, may be cared by some unknown nurse, grieving for my son till the last dying breath. Very difficult to find justice here. But belive me I am trying. I am trying to understand this calamity in my life, whether punishment or a trial. But I am so ordinary, neither a great sinner nor a great righteous person. That is why it is so difficult. Why was I condemned to a life of never ending grief?
Pray for me sister.
regards
S // April 5, 2009 at 6:12 am |
Salam,
Sister,i have a question..want to know wht u say abt this…
see..riba is prohibited? islam is way of life? its logical? its complete…its close to nature of a man? but then why there are so many things that we find either hard or impossible to apply in todays life…one being riba.. how can we apply riba rulings by islam in present world? ..internationally?in present world its impossible to trade without loans etc and we cant avoid banks too….also y should i donate my interest to banks when i can give it to some poor banks do trading n earn money with our investment??? so we cant actually avoid riba at all? in islam there is no concept of sale purchase? all transanctions were in gold and theres concept of baitulmaal? but i thought islamic teachings were for all times to come..i am confused. help!
thank you.
asqfish // April 8, 2009 at 4:43 pm |
Asalaamoalaikum,
Thank you for asking a question that requires a textbook for an answer:)
Briefly all I have to say is: if we live in a pigstye should we continue to live in it happily and pretend it is the best place in the world? should we try to change it? or should we leave it and migrate elsewhere?
I guess the first step is to recognise that the squelching sound coming from our feet is the garbage and mud of the pigstye, other decisions have to be made after that.
Jazaaik Allah Khair, I am not an expert on Riba, but it is one act about which Allah says ” I will wage war on the person who indulges in Riba”……that is enough to scare me to death!
Allah knows best, May He guide me, you and the entire Ummah how to get out of this mess.
On another thought perhaps He (SWT) already has shown the way by pulling the rug out of the Market?
Jazaaik Allah Khair.
S // April 12, 2009 at 8:07 pm |
Salam,
hehe @ textbook…i was just wondering if a non muslim asks me such a question how am i going to try and convince him logically in short time .wht u said they call it blind faith =| but anyway thank you..
keep my in your prayers,please.
=)
P.S i love ur blog,i am so lucky to have found it,have learned a lot! Allah bless you!
Ayan // April 13, 2009 at 8:10 pm |
Assalaamu ‘alaikum sister,
I really appreciate the amount of beneficial content in your blog. I am glad I found my way here and look forward to reading all your posts inshAllah. May Allah (swt) always guide you to what is best and khair!
Anisur Rahman // April 14, 2009 at 4:59 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualikum. A small note from a far away land to thank you for all the comfort that your writings have brought to me in the time of my excruciating pain. I am trying harder and harder but the feeling that I am some what responsible for not doing the best for my son keeps nagging on. Even in the last minutes when he was conscious, he was saying, “I will only rely on abbu because abbu will never give me pain”. How could I let him down….O sister it is so painful..Please pray foe me
asqfish // April 17, 2009 at 5:18 pm |
Walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu Brother, I have been thinking of you and you and your family is in my prayers.
Inshallah you have grasped His (SWT) rope tightly in your hands, now just hang in there till he lifts out out of the darkness…………….Inshallah, and cloaks you with His love and Mercy.
Your son was very fortunate to have one of the best physician possible by his bedside……….and the rest of the best cadre at his beck and call.
However, as you know now it is in that moment of total helplessness when we even as physicians can do nothing more even for our own beloved child, it is then that we realize that it is to Him we belong………..and unto Him we shall return.
What is with us will vanish
What is with Him will remain
……………..and thus is the beginners path to submission.
Inshallah He Subhanawataala will gently pick you up and carefully put you back on His path, every time you stumble and fall off, because He has chosen you as a traveler inshallah on to the road to Jannah. Ameen.
Anisur Rahman // May 9, 2009 at 2:52 am |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum.
Congratulations to Your daughter on becoming a doctor. Nabeel would have graduated in 2 years time.
Regards
asqfish // May 11, 2009 at 10:36 pm |
Walaikumasalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu,
Hearts find repose in the remembrance of Allah, all else is transient……..
May the days without Nabeel bring the mercy of Allah to give you comfort and may his remembrance give you repose.
Thank you for your good wishes, and please keep us in your prayers.
My salaams to the family. Jazzik Allah Khair.
RayonSoleil // May 12, 2009 at 3:28 am |
Assalamualaikum
Alhamdulillah, i am happy for Shireen…congratulation sr Asqfish. You have brought her to succes…masha Allah.
I wish i will be like you to my children.
Wassalamualaikum
RS
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Ameena Huq // June 12, 2009 at 9:36 am |
Dear Sister ASqfish and Dr. Anisur Rahman,
Assalamualaikum.
I lost my sister. I was so close to her. I am in so much pain I lost my interest to survive in this world. Oh God, it is so hard to take my life without her. Any suggestion? Please, give me some advise.
Regards
asqfish // June 13, 2009 at 12:46 am |
Walaikum asalaam Sister Ameena,
I am deeply saddened to hear of the loss of your dear sister. May Allah Subhanwataala forgive her sins, and elevate her to the finest levels of Jannah, and make her time in this passage easy on her.
As for you, remember that you carry her beauty, her love and her generous qualities within you, do the things she liked, visit the people she liked as a sadaqa, give sadaqa in her name and read a lot of Quran with meaning and ask Allah to help you and her in this path towards him.
Inshallah you will meet her in the Garden.
Anisur Rahman // June 15, 2009 at 3:31 am |
Dear Sister Ameena,
Asslamulaikum. I am so sorry to hear about your sister. But asking for my help is like asking a blind to lead another blind.
To quote my respetable sister Asma,”This too will pass”. You you will be surprised by the resilience of the human spirit. I have come to believe very strongly Allah only gives a burden which is within one’s ability to bear. Sister Asma has given you all the leads that you need. My input, look at my life, you too will be able to bear.
Yesterday was Nabeel’s birthday. He would be 22.
Rehgards
Ameena Huq // June 15, 2009 at 10:38 pm |
Dear Brother Anisur Rahman,
Thank you for your support. I am having so much pain for my sister she suffered so much for her kidney dialysis. It was so painful she could not took it for long and she had a heart attack and passed away. My mom is so upset I don’t know how she will take this loss. I have nothing to say except tears in my eyes. Sometimes life is just too hard. May Allah make this hard time easy for us and make her grave a place of rest and illuminate it.
Ameena Huq // June 16, 2009 at 10:08 am |
Dear Brother Anisur Rahman,
Assalamualaikum.
May Allah grant him Jannatul Ferdaus. I’ll make dua for Nabil for his 22nd birthday.
Ameena Huq // July 16, 2009 at 2:31 pm |
Dear sister Asqfish and brother Anis,
Why God gives us so many tests. Why good people suffer and bad people enjoy this world so much. My sister was a very good and giving person why she suffered so badly. I feel very sad when I think all these.
asqfish // July 16, 2009 at 3:17 pm |
Asalaam o alaikum sister Ameena!
Those of us who believe that this world is our final world and it is the most beautiful place to be then we are mistaken!
Only because this world is very brief and temporary.
We are here to prove to Allah Subhanawataala that we are good people and that we are not weak and do not succumb to the enemy of our father i.’e; Shaytaan and thus we deserve Jannah.
Sometimes He puts us in strife or takes away someone we love only to see if we are made of Jannat material or do we crumble at the first obstacle.
There is no place in Jannah for weak minded, selfish, lazy, arrogant and dishonest people without sabr and purity in their heart.
Therefore it is essential that we cleanse our hearts from all diseases of thoughts and actions to prepare to live in the most beautiful place that even our minds cannot imagine at this time.
Sounds simple doesnt it, but just try doing it, it is immensely hard work, but tremendously rewarding.
May Allah Subhanawataala grant you Jannah with your being mindful of Sabr, Shukr, salah and zakat.
Ameena Huq // July 16, 2009 at 11:29 pm |
Dear Sister Asqfish,
Asalaam o alaikum,
Thank you, last few days I was suffering so much. Your response gives me peace. Death of my sister and other problems makes me very upset. Please, pray for me and my family that we can handle this situation. Give me more advice.
asqfish // July 16, 2009 at 11:34 pm |
Walaikum asalaam,
The best advice that I got was from the words of Allah. I went to http://www.alhudapk.com and reviewed the tafseer in Taleem ul Quran every day for fifteen to thirty minutes and sometimes more.
He Subhanawataala helped me every step of the way in His own infinite wisdom.
I wrote one section that comforts me:
http://asqfish.wordpress.com/2009/07/13/what-i-hope-to-draw-sabr-from-surah-hud-119-11/
Hope it will help you too.
May Allah protect and guide you, and give you solace and sabr.
Ameena Huq // July 20, 2009 at 2:47 pm |
Dear Sister Asqfish,
Asalaam o alaikum, write more about our religion. Still I am very sad. Whenever you write something give me some relief from my pain. God bless you.
Anisur Rahman // August 22, 2009 at 11:35 am |
Dear Sister
Assalamualikum.
In the eve of Ramadan, I would request you to remeber Nabeel and us in your prayers.
With regards
asqfish // August 22, 2009 at 11:53 am |
Walaikum Asalaam, May Allah Subhanawataala accept our fasts and salaahs.
Alhamdollillah the four boys: Tariq Imran Ebad and Nabeel are in my every prayer.
May Allah grant them jannah and their loved ones sabr e jameel.
I dedicated a post to Nabeel,
Jazaaik Allah Khair
Anisur Rahman // August 22, 2009 at 12:05 pm |
Dear Sister,
Assalamualaikum.
I was overwhlmed with gratitude and humbled by your mercy towards Nabeel and myself. Thank you. I am going through one of the down stages and not very active. The O levels results have announced and it keeps reminding me of the day 5 years back. I have lot to learn ….
Regards
asqfish // August 22, 2009 at 12:13 pm |
walaikum Asalaam wa rahmatullah e wa barakatahu,
You have the amazing experience of Hajj to look forward to where you will be there with your Lord…….and be able to speak to Him IN His House.
Please remember to keep me and my family in your prayers.
jazzaik Allah Khair!
Ameena Huq // August 23, 2009 at 10:42 am |
Dear sister Asqfish and brother Anis,
Assalamualaikum.
Please, keep my sister in your prayer. Last Ramadan she was alive and this Ramadan she is in grave. I miss her so much. I cry for her all the time. I am so upset. My whole family is suffering for her absence.
asqfish // August 24, 2009 at 8:24 am |
Sister Ameena,
Alhamdollillah! you, your sister and your family are in my prayers.
Imam Ghazali’s words in todays post will bring you some solace.
Jazzaik Allah Khair, Ramadan Mubarak!
maryam akram // November 13, 2009 at 10:29 am |
asalaam o alykum.
i’m in search of siratim mustaqeem too inshaALalh.
love ur blog, i can learn alot through it inshaALAlh,
added ur blog to my blog roll.
i’ll keep visiting inshaALAh, thanks
take care salaam
asqfish // November 13, 2009 at 7:43 pm |
Jazaaik Allah Khair!
I would love to see your opinion in the comments on the posts.