Am I ready for my final home? I am running around in circles, everything that I have done is not working, I want status quo but change is staring me in the face and I just want it to be what it was like when it was quiet…..
Thus it is in this world. Allah Subhanawataala promises us in the Quran that everything will change and come to a final standstill on the Final Day but not before then. Yet we yearn for “no change” whether it is in relationships, income, time, pursuits, professions etc….. Yet everything and everyone changes.
I am at the crossroad of change. What to do with my profession, leave it, keep it, modify it……..how to make time to study the meaning of the Quran? How to understand and practice it if I do not know the meaning, and how to reach Jannah if I do not obey……and how to obey that which I know not…..thus the day goes.
I pacify my self that I am watching nature and appreciating Allah, I am sleeping so that I am refreshed to do ebadah but deep down I know that is not entirely true and He Subhanawataala who is closer than my jugular vein knows it too.
So the question of the day is how to change? Slowly or dramatically?
Please keep me in your duas as I choose the turn in my life……