“To return to Allah penitent and ashamed of being away from him, and return with a feeling of love, attachment and promise to stay on a path that leads to him”
WHAT MAKES TAWBAH VALID?
Sincerity and a burst of feeling that comes from within a heart that is honest, sincere and transparent, intelligent, cognizant, reflective, understanding of what Allah Subhanawataala has ordered us to do and what not to do, obedient, desiring of Allah’s nearness, consistent, focused on the path to Allah, sees itself as a traveler in this world and had no intention of meandering away from the path of Allah and never to be found where Allah does not want it to be and always found where Allah wants it to be…..
Such a heart is ready for tawbah and the tawbah of such a heart is accepted.
HOW DOES ONE GET SUCH A HEART THAT IS CAPABLE OF ALL THESE ATTRIBUTES?
Each one of us is born with a pure fitra and a clear transparent heart.
With every disobedience of Allah that is committed by our senses our eyes, ears, hands, feet, nose, and private parts a black dot is placed on our heart, these are all Gunnah-e sagheera or small sins.
Eventually if we continue to disobey Allah in small ways lying, cheating, back biting, missing salah on time, hurting people, eating and drinking haram, or from haram earnings e.g. those obtained from doing business in alcohol and or lottery, looking at haram things and acts on TV, magazines movies etc or listening to songs or watching or being somewhere that entices you towards haram ……….all this time black dots are multiplying onto our hearts (Ouzibillah I minish shaytaan nir rajeem….
Eventually our heart with whose purity we could discern the light of Allah and His Noor of ILM is blinded, and we blunder around and away from Allah.
WHAT OPENS THE EYES OF OUR HEART AND TURNS IT BACK TO ALLAH?
Just like when we wash a cooking pot that has layers of grease and dirt cooked on to it that has been sitting for a while we have to polish the pot, initially with something strong and with strength.
The polish of the heart is DHikr
Allah Subhanawataala says in the Quran “I want you to indulge in Dhikhran Kaseerah!”
Kaseer is A LOT, unlike salah and fasts there is no number attached to Dhikran kaseera so it means that when you sit and do Dhikhran kaseera the harder it is for you to sit quietly and focus on the Dhikr its meaning and feel it with your heart, the more your heart may be coated with rust and more Dhikr it needs.
Today’s Dhikr is for Tawbah and Istighfaar:
I feel that our sins, mistakes and disobediences as a nation of muslims have become so much that we have lost our focus in life and we are meandering around in the desert of this world like a lost traveler, going in what ever direction food or drink looks possible, with no higher goal and no goal that will be our individual or collective salvation.
We are few and scattered but if can focus on our hearts and recite, repeat the tawba of Sayiiddna Younus in Surah Anbiya ayah 87 repeatedly till we feel it coming out of us in all sincerity, then we can recite the Sayyidi Istighfaar recited by Prophet Muhammad pbuh and repeat it till each word rings true to us.
Another way that a friend explained to me, that in this private time with Allah Subhanawataala, focus on each sin, disobedience or lie that you have done in your life and let it pass in front of your eyes like a movie and each one of you knows what they are and how many times you have to say Istighfaar for each Ma’asiya.
Let the Dhikr begin!!!!
DUA: May Allah accept our Istighfaar and Dhikr and bring us closer to him. Ameen!