
The retreat continues in Africa, surrounded by the tamed beauty of the rural province, we learn to practice what we are learning theoretically. The first obvious test being punctuality or meeqaat, I.e. being in the right place at the right time for prayer for class for lunch for reflections to write the summary and to sleep. After the first few mishaps as my mind and body rebel against the regimen they soon fall into place and the reinforcement from my roommates is inspirational.
Hidden between the lines in Surah Zumar are two important messages. One is self evaluation to recognize which group do we belong to, and the second is to accept and acknowledge that the end result of what happens to us truly lies in the essence of our demonstrated behavior and the sincerity of the act.
Life, societal pressures, age constraints, job constraints, relationships and there demands, all fade into the background as I examine myself in the clarity of the description of the two groups of people.
Suddenly the fork in the road is right in front of me, it seems like there has been no time to prepare for the road I want to be on i.e. the road to Jannah. The other option exudes pain and anguish and seems intolerable.
As I hesitate at the fork of the road, the description of The Fire and those within it becomes real and I find myself propelled in the direction of the path to Jannah.
The description of the qualifications of the people on the path to jannah is rigorous and it seems that though all Muslims are offered jannah, no one with even an iota of impurity in their heart will enter it unless it has been removed prior to doing so.
The process of purification can take place voluntarily in this world by following the requirements outlined in the Surah or if one keeps a cavalier attitude in this world then the next option for purifying us for Jannah is to dip us repeatedly in The Fire until all impurities are burned off.
Option one is voluntary and Option two is mandatory and painful. One would think the decision should be a no brainer and yet habit, procrastination and wishful thinking keeps me waiting for something magical to happen, so that I can keep the status quo and yet get to Jannah.
Ikhlaas……..Sincerity, if only one can develop that in every thought and action, with the impetus that on the day of judgment, our acts and intentions will be tested for the litmus of sincerity, we can be home free.
However for those who want instant gratification…….this is torture, alas, we forget that it will also be torture later.
As the day winds down I am overcome with a severe degree of emotional fatigue. How can I cleanse every thought and act of mind and fill it will sincerity? Just the very thought of going against the grain of the society I live in, exhausts me.
I walk to my little igloo and fall asleep, strange dreams whirling through my head till I awaken for tahajjud.

In the morning, I am seated in class and I open the Surah, the first ayah that we will study freezes me in place.
He Subhanawataala has read my mind and heart and knows my weaknesses, difficulties, and my desire to be on the path to jannah, knowing that I am weak and inept……………this ayah is His gift from him to me…………..:
039.053: Say: “O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah: for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.
This does not let me off the hook, but gives me a conscious desire to make the effort to remain on the path to Jannah however with a time line:
039.054: “Turn ye to our Lord (in repentance) and bow to His (Will), before the Penalty comes on you: after that ye shall not be helped.
The key is Tawbah, repentance, or returning to my Lord. The room full of people recedes as I begin my dialogue with my Lord……………….
HAVE YOU REVIEWED SURAH ZUMAR LATELY?
WHICH GROUP ARE YOU IN?



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